Lil' space of mySelf

Shooopping shoooopping ..

2011-02-20T16:32:00.002+08:00

Its been quite some time for me to abandon this blog of mine .. Haha! Today went for a dimsum breakfast with all my aunts including 6th aunt .. who came over to stay overnight such that we can have our house to be the casino .. what games dat we play? you name it .. mah jong, cards, gin rummy .. talking bout who's the gambler .. haha!

Went to Times Square with brother then took monorail off to Sg Wang .. Strange things is dat 11am half of the shop is still closed .. Guess nowadays all the ppl is rich enough that they dont need to do biz anymore huh ? economy down crisis konon ..

Well,we walked to Low Yat from Sg Wang as bro wanted to buy some stuff while i wanna check out whut i can buy .. Bling bling casing for my iphone .. haha! Only by today i discovered that iMac 27'' inclusive of keyboard and magic mouse is sold for rm5499.. It came to a shock to me as ive been told that that fella cost around rm10k .. which when i heard of it i jus tell myself .. Forget it~~

Well now dat i kno it cost much lower than 10k,this will be my next possesion and can i say sumthing that i can strive for this year .. I've been loving Mac alot!! Oh .. I saw a bling bling iPhone casing with swarovski crystal .. hati bergerak gerak wanan buy but too expensive .. RM150.. not realistic .. so i jus have to give it a go .. too badddd ..

Shopping for gadgets isnt that boring anyways .. Haha ...

Poor cat ..

2011-01-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

I am always fond about dogs .. Jus now,my dog went out and act strangely .. sniffing around walking slowly towards the gate and start barking .. I observed quite awhile and feel something is not right,straight i rush to the door and demand him to be back..He obviously ignored my order no matter how loud i am (I'm scared its a snake outside as i heard my fren told me be4) ..

I went out and saw a cat lying down outside my gate with whole body wet.. I didnt take much look and dragged my dog inside .. But i felt something not right .. Awhile,I went back out and ask the guard whats happening and i slowly examine the cat .. She is not moving, her whole body is wet and she jus sitting there still ..

The guard told me that the guy from few houses away from me, beaten the cat and the wife pour water to the cat, jus because the cat was under his car .. Is that THE ONLY WAY to treat something that has life? You can jus whoosh her away o jus start ur engine and she will jus go away ..

I felt damn mad and at the same time pity for the cat. My tears automatically rolled down on my cheeks .. I was told to leave things as it is .. But when i flash back the picture of the cat,i feel really really sad .. Animal has their life too .. Appreciate everything and even the little life ..

Where is the humanity ?

Ordinary ..

2010-11-13T20:30:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile that i didnt blog.. I've been pretty much busy with work.. Jus out of a sudden just feel like writing something.. Work has tied me up alot .. Days and night been working .. Well,its a good progress in my work though .. Im learning more and more things .. I guess in order for you to be good and learn something you got to let go others things .. In economic,its call kos lepas.. Ive been really concentrate in work that i have less time going out meeting up with my frens. I guess this is the things that i need to less spend time on when i want to succeed in my work .. Well,its not that my frens is not important to me.. Its jus that time now is crucial for me to master the work and biz that im doing.. The minimum time for me to take to master it would be a benefit to me.

In this few month i learn to be independent.To b decisive,to be in order to speak up whats in my mind,and mostly to be confident in myself .. to meet ppl .. learn to be strong,to be able to take up the biz,need alot of strength and hardworking. Newspaper biz is not like other biz.. Its tough.. Well,im up to the challenge.. Im glad that i have a very supportive bf and mentor dad to guide me through .. to shorten my road.. In this i found what i need to improve .. that is to LISTEN.. Listening is the master of everythin .. When i dont listen,i missed out alot .. Ive never regret to take up this road,because it has made me stronger,wiser ..

To all the frens that i sort of lost in touch with this period of time,im sorry .. I miss you guys and really wanted to meet u with you guys and get in touch back as how we are last time ... Knowing that u guys is always in my mind ..

Kok Soon ..

2010-11-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

Today i remember a dear fren of mine .. A fren that i come to know during my form 6 years in St John .. A fren that i have lost in touch but he will come across my mind in many different phase in my life.. His image will always come to me whenever im in down moment .. Thinking back on my life back in Form 6,i really did enjoy spending time with him .. Accompanying him walking to the special room when recess started and back to the classroom when its ended.. Reading newspaper and whats new in the news .. Chit chattin with him ..

He to me is a guy who is very talented .. A guy who can score very well in exams .. SPM 8A's if im not mistaken and oso did very well in sports .. But all the talent that is given to him,there is this one incident during primary time that changed his life .. While he was playing basketball wid his fren,his cornea in his eyes fell off,that resulted him being blind ever since then ..

He never gave up his life .. He to me when i knew him,he was a guy who is full with hopes,optimistic,happy,hardworking,strong willed,blind? doesnt stop him from going forward at all .. He get the best results in exams,he won the best sportmans in Paralympic..He even appeared in newspapers .. He is sort of the most inspirational ppl to me .. When i was in my down moment .. I tot of him .. his image will come into my head .. If a man who has been blind not when he was born,he got the chance to see this world and incident happen and he lost sight.. its more suffering than you were born blind.. thats what i thought ..

I told myself given his situation if he can be so strong willed and nothing can stop him from going forward,why cant I?I salute him and he has been an idol to me .. Someone that i really respect and look up to.. His attitude inspires me .. Anyone who come to know this guy you will be amazed how positive and inspiring he is .. I'm the lucky ones ..

1st day without you ..

2010-10-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

I thought it was all alrite when i registered you to SPCA for boarding .. You didnt seem to know whut is happening .. Dad felt so heavy hearted and that time i was OK .. I didnt feel as much that i thought i would feel .. weeping away sorrow .. That point when i leave you there i felt 'keberatan'.. but i went away at last .. Office and work has kept me busy not thinking about you ..

But its all coming to me when i reached home .. Daddy and mummy seems to miss you very much .. Our home now is much quieter without your barking sound ...Often i wonder how are you doing there .. Today you went thru nurture,and i hope you rest well .. Eventhough ppl says you will still be that aggresive somehow i hope you will change .. such that one day i will be able to see you again in our home .. I miss the way you climb up and look in through the windows .. ur happiness and waving tail waiting at the gate when we come back ..

I MISS YOU BLACKIE ..

i love you ... but at the same time i hate you ..

2010-10-17T15:45:00.005+08:00

It was never easy to let you go .. Especially both of my parents .. Somehow i hope you manage to know how we felt .. Ive never seen my dad cry .. but i saw him cry for you ... and my mum's tear rolling down when she thinks about you..I have no right to determine hows your life should lead to..Ultimately we thought to just let you go in the wild .. hold ur life as ur own .. and today we found out that we can actually place you somewhere else and they can take care of you .. making sure that you get the food and care that you need .. that you wouldnt be put to sleep o staying beside roadside .. Mummy and daddy wouldnt be too worried how will you be ..

From the moment you bite my mum's hand and its the 3rd time .. there is no way that you are gonna stay in this house anymore .. no matter how we has loved you ..In this moment .. the feeling wasnt easy to bear .. Jus wan you to know that we do love you very much .. But you have hurt my mum and she is not the only one that has got bitten by you .. Eventually my dad and bro did and i was the only one who hasnt... Chances were given several times but this time the wound that is in my mum's hand is way to deep ..

Blackie,eventhough you are jus a dog .. i love you as much as i do as a human .. I pray that you will have a good life .. Make many frens in the centre that we r going to send you .. and well, remember us.. Blackie,I love you .. We love you .. .

Daddy fell ...

2010-09-22T17:21:00.002+08:00

Yesterday when im in my dreamland sleeping,i heard 'Boom' sound .. at first i thought that was this renovation going on as opposite my place there is still apartment that is still under construction..Next thing i know my mum came knocking and shouting to me and my bro.. 'Daddy pengsan on the floor'... That is when i felt so awake at instant and it is 2.30a.m. i could still remember clearly and the images still running through my head even now .. when i open my door .. i saw across the room,my daddy is lying on the floor unconsciously .. But there is snoring sound coming from him .. My bro rush to my dad and i was still in my room looking across at him,panicked and couldn't move.And suddenly my bro shouted ' Got blood ' ..

That is when i got really paranoid and start dialling 999 .. my voice is so shaken when i talked to the officer..and my bro and mum was beside my dad try waking him up.my line was passed over to hospital call centre where they ask me alot of bullshit question than ever to say at instant to send the ambulance over... My bro overheard my conversation and said.. ' Ill send daddy to hospital. he is awake .. Dont need their ambulance .. we r faster.. That instant i put down the phone and get ready to rush to hospital ..

Daddy has been woken up by my bro,but he couldn't remember what happen and why he end up being there .. I was so so worried and he went to toilet before getting in the car.. and that point of time i was still paranoid.. i am still not sure whether will he suddenly faint again o whatever .. things came pouring into my mind and i couldn't think straight.. I called Kenneth and he rushed over to the hospital...We reach hospital in jus less than10 min .. i guided my dad in and rush over to tell the nurse what happen .. and he was send into the room..When i was there,my mind is still stuck and im still worry and scared .. he faint .. there must b something wrong ..

He had his brain x-ray at 3am..and he got benjol behind his head..It is quite serious for a not so young guy like him that u knock behind ur head .. while waiting for the x ray result,i couldn't talk.. i couldn't think .. i was purely scared .. scared wat if the result shows something negative? i am a person who cry easily but yesterday,i didnt.. it is because what i felt is far worst .. 15 min later,report is out,doc ask us to go in .. and we r blessed that the x ray is normal .. and that is when i pull a weak smile ..

Daddy had been admitted to the hospital..when he was admitted he has fever and also high blood .. It was nearly 5am when everythin is so called settle.. I went back pack some stuff for daddy and bring it for him .. had my work done in the office and spend the rest of the day to accompany him .. doc came in and check .. had him x ray on the chest and doc advised him to stay overnite and discharge this morning for observation.. Daddy like most old man .. doesnt like to stay overnite in the hospital .. who like to stay overnight there anyway? But for his health and make sure he is really okay before he come back home,i encouraged him to stay there awhile more .. That night i accompany my daddy overnighting at the hospital.. kept him company such that he dont feel lonely ..

This morning .. doc came in and check saying daddy is well to do .. but his breathing is still weak on the right .. cause of the cough ...but nothing serious .. he was so happy when he know that he can go back .. i felt relief ... but i still worry about him .. i am glad that he is okay now .. this incident really shocked me and it also made me realize stronger that appreciate every moment with daddy and everyone around me .. 活在当下，珍惜眼前人..

Zainal Abidin- Hijau

2010-09-07T18:33:00.000+08:00

Currently this is the song that i always listen too .. somehow it captured my heart .. This song is from 1989..it has been 21 years and i came to kno this song when Kenneth sang it in karaoke .. I found this meaningful ... lets preserve our world to b a better place .. especially when we are facing global warming and environmental issue now .. Song,somehow can bring msg to everyone .. Enjoy .. =)

Fren's mum passing ...

2010-08-22T20:27:00.002+08:00

This morning when i was waiting for my haircut appointment,i got a call saying my fren's mum has passed away .. Cancer is the culprit.. Back then when im in high school,i met her mum a few times.. She is a very generous and kind lady..Cant help but felt sadden by this loss .. This news has quite impacted me in a way .. This news came unexpected .. too fast ...If i can feel so sad,i cant imagine how would my fren would have felt .. Jus hope that she will stay strong and take care of herself..and we will be there whenever you need our support ..R.i.p auntie ..

Kenneth's grandpa 100 days ..

2010-08-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

Its been exactly 100 days since his grandpa passed away .. Ever since dat,he is sort of not allowed to enter my house .. (some old folks tradition) .. Went to Seremban yest,wake up 5 plus this morning gettin ready for 100 days ceremony at Nirvana Semenyih .. I'm lucky to be able to meet his grandpa when he is still alive back then .. a good soul with warm heart .. Eventhough when i meet him,he barely recognize anyone (he is 99 years old) .. And that was the last time that i ever get to meet him ..

A very new experience for me in this 100 days ceremony.. As Hokkien's tradition,we do it in quite a 'flamboyant' (not sure what suitable word to use) way .. alots of ceremony,stuffs and bla bla bla .. Well,at least i learn how to tanam pineapple today .. Well i guess this is the biggest learning for me today .. haha!will try it myself and see the results .. His whole family + all his uncles and aunties were there .. and they were pretty cool .. funny .. good sense of humour .. I'm sure his grandpa will be very happy to see the whole family together and will take care and watch out for them from above ..

beautiful chat ..

2010-07-29T16:58:00.003+08:00

Had a talk with Kenneth jus now in the car for almost 20 min (approx) .. We had chats about our relationship , where is it heading to,our breakdowns, miscommunications and our beloved DRAMA'S .. Funnily enough that we can discuss it openly and laughing all the way in having both of us laughing at ourself on how silly we can be..

There come a point of time i told him ... I miss you being so romantic and putting down the ego to pujuk me .. where is that you? no more geh .. and he laugh .. and said that he is kayu and apparently when he did all those funny lil romantic thingy that i actually didnt give any reaction thats why he sien liao .. dont wanna do already .. (oh damn!!)

We both talk about our arguements .. Last time use to be 7days a week and now it has been improved .. average 1 arguement per week .. why the breakdown? both point finger at each other lo .. and he say 'you think i donno you ah .. i kno you well enough to kno how you will react everytime ..

I guess i really love this conversation .. being open and laugh at ourself and correct all the mistake and breakdown along the way to create better relationship in the future .. no arguement,no deep understanding about each other ..

i'm blessed to have a bf that love me for who am i .. care for me enough to know me so well in person, to accept my goods and bads , mood swings, tsunami swings, whatever swings that i have .. what more can i ask for? oh ya .. romantic bf ... that he say he stopped being because i got no reaction when he is being romantic .. mayb i should have some reaction then?mayb? hm.. will think about it ..

今天的星期六。。

2010-07-17T22:52:00.005+08:00

最近忙的也是工作。。承受的压力。。是必经的。。爸爸说我太急。。自己给自己很多的不必的压力。。可能是吧。。真的要学习放松一下。。忙了两个星期的工作终于今天完成了。坐着对着电脑已经八个小时了。。完成了觉得有些满足感。。在做着工作的时候一直在听歌。。某一些歌让我想起了很多经历过的事情。。甜的，酸的，苦的。。都有。。。

这两个多月，忙的是工作和fun quiz。。fun quiz 已经圆满结束了。。准备了两个多月到了当天，终于觉得是值得的。。当天我很享受整个fun quiz。。看到了最大胆的装扮，整个房间充满欢笑声。。一个很不同的体验。。

在整两个月期间，我领悟和学到了很多的东西。。尤其是人性，团体精神，领悟到，之前我不明白的事。。有好的，也有不好的。。

人，总是计算不到的。。爸爸说我太天真了。。之前我会发脾气当他这么说我。。但现在，当经过了，我承认我还是很天真。。想的每件事情会很好的，每个人都是很好的。。很圆满的。。但现实是那样的吗？现实是残酷的。。不想去接受但必须的。。我所领悟到的，好的，我会继续的学习。。不好的，我会提醒我自己不会对别人那样。。

让我最心痛的是，我以为懂我是怎样的人的朋友都觉得我做不好了，偏私了。。此刻的心情是难以形容的。。但都是过过去了。。写下了，就放下了。。但我总觉得你是懂我的。。我相信。。

现在很多不同了。。很多事情，关系都变了。。时间能回到过去吗？朋友。。有特别几个我是不想失去的。。希望友谊不变。。

Engelbert Humperdick ...

2010-06-20T00:53:00.003+08:00

Jus came back from Engelbert Humperdick concert in Genting .. First when i saw this guy and his name i was like .. ennn..gell...what?whos this guys?My mum spontaneously jus speaks his name out.. I turn and look at my mum.. wow .. u actually kno this guy .. Now that i kno he is the one who make this 'Release Me' song a hit song of all times ..

I was quite impressed by his vocal .. At the age of nearly 70 perhaps?he still can sing non stop for 2 hours and his vocal is remarkable .. A song that seems not familiar but i be really impress with his vocal.. Its amazing .. (Personal opinion : watching guai lo concert is totally different feel than those chinese ones .. ) ..

Nevertheless,somehow rather his performance tonight had me go thinking dat the older guai lo the more ham sap they are though.. fills with his porn jokes,kissing audience (and i mean mouth to mouth more than once .. ) .. and bla bla bla .. Well mayb Malaysian ere including me is not really that open minded yet though .. different perspective different view .. But i have a personal experience of getting to know a older guai lo that kinda same 'fashion' like him too .. haha! (some of you might kno who am i referring to ) That is why i have this belief that the older they are the more 'h*rny' they are .. haha!

Well jus besides dat .. its quite an entertaining concert for me .. and the vocal is absolutely amazing .. Thumbs up!!

cYcLE of blaming ..

2010-06-15T21:07:00.002+08:00

Jus feel like bloggin it out .. Near my office's traffic light has been real disaster.. Not long ago.. both sides traffic lights is not functioning at all .. Called JKR .. Nothing is done .. Well .. First attempt ..

Recently the traffic light went off again .. for both side .. total of 6 traffic light is not working at all .. Foresee accident o fight will occur if nothing is done to fixed the damn traffic light.. Early in the morning called JKR .. Nice voice and greetings .. 'Hi! I would like to inform you about traffic light that is not functioning' .. and she answer .. 'Oh, i think that is JKR Electric side .. I give you the number .. 03-9285***.. Well, okay ..

Straight dialled the number.. told them the same thing .. 'Oh,traffic light that area is under DBKL'.. Ok cool~ Keep my temper and called DBKL eventually asking the same thing when the operator answered the call .. Guess what .. The answer that i get was 'Oh, is it the traffic light under the bridge which is alo lead to MRR2? oh .. she knows it and knows the place .. Well,a slight chance that they are the one who fix it .. And the following phrase that she tell me was .. 'Oh,that one you should call MPAJ .. They are the one who fixed it'..

Well,ive called JKR and DBKL.. so both of them denying it tht they are the one who is accountable on it .. so now jus left MPAJ .. who can they blame on summore .. so since dat ive called 2 useless body .. ma as well go for the last one also .. Called up MPAJ .. telling the same phrase .. and their answer was ' Oh you should call JKR .. they are the one who in charge of it .. Damn!! this is how the government body works? passing blame to each other?its really a cycle .. u blame me,i blame u,then i blame you back ..

I told the operator 'YOU LISTEN HERE.. IVE CALLED JKR,DBKL AND NOW YOU .. Before i could even finish my phrase .. she added ' Oh no .. i call you to call JKR not DBKL .. and loudly i say u listen ere i said I CALLED JKR AND THEY TELL ME IS DBKL, AND WHEN I CALLED DBKL THEY SAY ITS YOU,AND WHEN I CALL YOU , YOU SAY IS JKR, HOW NOW?!! .. then she say wid a impatient voice .. oh sorry .. i will call JKR now .. ya rite !!!

Eventually when i go back passing the traffic light after work,nothing is done at all from morning till the evening .. A little things like this also cant be able to handle,wanna improve the whole country ? Are you serious?

我生日的惊喜。。

2010-06-06T20:51:00.006+08:00

不知不觉我生日过了一个星期，也不知不觉我已经25岁了。。时间真的过的很快。。还记得那时我20岁的时候觉得那么的年轻。。有一天妈妈提醒我已经25岁了才发现原来我不像当年那么的年轻了。过去的生日我会很期待的去庆祝。。可是今年我很想很简单的庆祝我的生日。。可能人老了吧。。。哈哈。。

星期天我一家人跟我阿姨一起去buffet 。。爸爸妈妈两人送了一个MacBook Pro 给我。。一个我很想拥有的礼物。。最想不到的是我弟弟送给我的礼物。。让我很感动。。虽然他可不是很名贵的礼物但是当我收到的时候，我却很感动。。谢谢你给我一个很有意思的礼物。。

弟弟送给我的礼物。。

我的生日是在星期一。。平常星期一我都很忙。。那天也不例外。。忙了一整天。。要赶去Asiawork，有个meeting .. 但是我不知道的是我一班朋友做了一个惊喜给我。。我真的没想到。。真的觉得很惊喜。。谢谢你们给我这个难忘的惊喜。。谢谢你们的用心良苦。。可惜的是我男朋友不能出席这个惊喜。。

今年的生日我特别开心。。虽然简单，但是形象横深刻。。拥有一个温暖的家，一个很体谅我的男朋友，一班很好的朋友。。我觉得很幸福喔。。。

人总要信 ..

2010-05-02T23:19:00.004+08:00

After 1 week of ups and down .. Its really great to be with great frens having nice outing,karaokeing(screaming the lungs out), watching movie in the cinema (and cry like nobody's business) .. back at home now,tired but feel like blogging a few words ..

I was introduced a song by a great fren of mine while on the way back home.. He told me its was a really great song .. The minute she sang ... IT IS .. No doubt im always attracted to songs which has meaningful lyric .. And this song is really as he say suitable for i know who .. The lyrics inside really speaks about them .. And i really do wish that one day I would b able to present this song to them .. I know time wont wait and summore after watching 'Echoes of the rainbow' .... 'Human greatest enemy is time ... '... And i kno how impactful this song is to them ... And i would really love to see what the process and how the outcome will be .. And im sure it is something that i really would be longing to see it happen ...... '人总要信' ...

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2010-04-26T20:14:00.005+08:00

If i can, I wish this page of blog that i'm writting now,i would like to write it in Mandarin.This 2 days especially today .. It had been one of the hardest day for me to go through by far..I thought everything happen for a reason. I try to rationalize it.All this while ive been to idealistic.Everyone around tell me,when you do good,ppl will do good back to you..But how true is dat in the real world?Especially in biz world.Sometime i would have thought that am i suitable to be in biz given that im naive and idealistic.This question had been running through my mind the whole day today..In my mind,do my best dont care about whut ppl say or backstabbed..But is it when you do good,people will appreciate?and never backstabbed you?and never do something to pull you down?Im realistic in a way,everyone is good.. I still think it is though .. but agenda happens different times proven otherwise.. In jus 1 days, I came to discover alot of things that ive never thought i will be going through ..people say thing that can make u die,only will make you stronger.. I know im strong enough to go through this .. And i will succeed ..

Being too emotional wouldnt be good.. Being too realistic woouldnt be good either.. Im struggling to go through this i must admit. Reason being? Ive no idea..Sometimes i would wish that im would be more clever,be able not to feel bad and sad.. But what im sad is,why human being can be so selfish? Why it is not about teamwork?Why isnt it about helping and supporting each other but rather I'll make sure you die such that i can conquer everything?I envy you do good,therefore i must pull you down and create some problem to you .. SURVIVAL MODE .. I always remind myself that human being are born good..There will be one day that i will see a community that talks about peace,supporting ... But other than whut i see now.. its otherwise.. How long more that i can keep the believe that everyone is good when everything that happen its against whut i believe? i donno .. Mayb some ppl will say that im stupid to have a thought like dat .. its does sounds stupid but i do believe.. If the world is like this, it will be a better place to live in .. no more wars,no global warming ... Mayb this is idealistic..

I admit today everything seems to fall on today .. in every aspect of my life.. Change it to another perspective,its a good thing as if it not whut happen to day .. it will not make me realize and grow ..Every incidence is a chance to learn.. Deep in my heart,im really really hurt and my eyes is watery when i wrote this blog .. It was not planned.. I jus write whutever i feel like writing.. Had a jog in the evening .. was so commited to making it happen no matter what and yes i did jog .. Its the only time for me today to really relax and try to find peace with myself.. Im feeling very very 'san fu' ..And i let this feeling in .. It hurts .. I got to let it in to be able to let it go ...Keep telling myself I'm gonna be okay ..and I will ...

I questioned myself .. is it normal to go through this?or is it jus im stupid enough not to cope on this?How do i go through this,o in another way,how do i handle this?Trust? What is trust?Support?In the real world especially in biz,is there any?Backstabbing?An activity that everyone is interested in?Betray?I think it came in a package wit trust..I feel like im being blindfolded.. I donno whats that anymore .. Question is .. is it im the one who has change? or is this the time i came to see the real realistic world?

What i want is always simple .. I guess it has never change ever since..I hope this world is a place where there is no hatred,betrayal,selfishness and everyone living the moment purely without ever need to calculate will other ppl harming in any way ..

As far as it seems,from idealistic going through realistic is not a smooth process.I got to stay strong.By the end of it,the only thing that i want is when I'm in this realistic world,i dont get drift and blindfolded by it ... I'm still the same old Jynnie Tan that everyone used to know ..

Are you an Attention Seeker .. ?

2010-04-15T20:52:00.001+08:00

This particular signboard caught my eyes .. and i was like ' I want to take a photo of it ' ... I thought it was a great advertising idea .. and its very eye catching .. Mayb im an attention seeker therefore it jus caught my eyes .. haha! Creative idea to make ppl take a look at it ..

Speaking of attention seeker .. From my point of view,everyone is an attention seeker though .. Its jus the level attention seekerness level is high or low .. I think it certainly OK to be attention seekers sometimes .. But dont have it overboard cause it might disgust other ppl .. Look at the situation and act accordingly .. You know whut i mean? haha!Too much of it would be irritating though ..

Klang + Skybridge ..

2010-04-15T16:24:00.001+08:00

There are reasons why i put this 2 place together .. Hmmmm ... =)

Last weekend ... as promised and as planned ... at last ive determine to go down to Klang once to visit Keng yee ( as he has been bugging me to visit him and his house for so so long time edi ) .. and my bad .. that my laziness is the worst disease of all .. haha! And that weekend itself ive plan to visit BoON Siong and his newborn cutesy baby ... With Matt and Jun along .. it was fun all the way .......

Bak Kut Teh - Keng yEE house - Boon Siong's house and we ended our day with our beloved steamboat ... and we had our deep deep chat there and we sat almost 3 hours there chatting ..

Well, what motivates me to write this post was ..... later you'll know la .. hehe!

Monday night, i received Matt's invitation to go up the Skybridge of the Twin Tower .. I was so flattered and i ask whther o not it is possible to bring my mum up .. and he said YES!! i was so happy .. My MUM longing to go up to the Sky bridge for so long and her dream will come true ...

Thanks to Matt that we are able to go up the Skybridge .. and my mum was so happy ... (big smile) ...

These are few pics that we took when we were in Skybridge ..

Didnt get a change to go out from KLCC to catch a photo of the twin tower .. But i guess the picture below do resemblance the Twin tower though.. With the Skybridge in between .... hahah! Gotcha Matt!! Dont be Mad yah !! wow it rhymes ....

I personally love this pic alot .... Love and hugs to both of you ...

1 year Anniversary ....

2010-03-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

26/3/2010 ...

Its our 1 year being together .. Funny thing is it doesnt seems like 1 year already .. Recall back how we started and the situation .. I can smile sweetly from my heart .. Its feels real good being with him .. A guy that i can be who i am when im wid him and accept me for who i am .. What more can i ask for ...

It was friday and we didnt have much time to celebrate as its a working day and this year we kept it simple .. Cause its our golden time to earn money .. so therefore if we wanted to celebrate it lavishly it would be a few years later .. =) Met him up and he brought me to dinner .. In the car, I told him .. " Wah .. tak sangka we 1 year edi lo .. " and he replied .. " Yeah lo .. One whole year of arguing and dramas everyday ... " and we survivedddd .. hahhaha! I laugh at his reply ..

Looking back this 1 year .. its been a pretty rollercoaster year .. Mayb its because its the beginning for us to really know each other therefore we cant be escaping the arguing and the drama part .. I can proudly say its getting better day by day.. At least he still survived rite ? (Now u know who cause all the dramas when i said that ) haha!

About him, he's been a guy that ive always wanted to be wid .. I remembered small times, I will always wish for a guy who love me for who i am .. Its not about wealthy o not, background o any other things .. but sincere love and a guy who can go up and down go throught waves togehter with me .. This 1 year .. without fail , he's been real good to me .. being patient when im impatient and short fuse (which is always ) .. be there to encourage me and lift me up again when i breakdown .. Treating my parents and family well like his own .. Like i said what more can i ask for ... 'You love a person when you see their imperfection as perfection'.. Of coz such a great guy like him do have flaw .. who dont have ? Well , i can proudly say he's perfect to me ...

For this 1 year, i enjoyed your company and i do feel love surrounded me and being loved .. Love you ~~ Let's build this up together ...

Missing thumbdrive ..... plz come back ..

2010-03-23T19:46:00.001+08:00

Today its been the worst day in my life .. I had lost my thumbdrive .. I didnt kno how did it happen .. This morning brought it to office to print something out to let me dad see .. didnt work out so i unplug it from the server and put it back in my pocket ..

The next second that i realize when i back home and wanted to print it out at home,it went missing .. Search it all in my car .. didnt see it anywhere .. Trying to recall where it would be and where have i been .. I jus been to 2 place .. my office and bank .. ridiculous .. Shit really happens .. Called up office and went back search .. DONT HAVE ..

Came back home .. i started crying loudly ... I lost my thumbdrive wid all my hardwork for months inside .. I feel really really bad .. Without thinking much i ask bro to drive me to Maybank .. Searched on the road,asked the counter they didnt see it .. Search again my car .. It nowhere to be seen ..

Now i would jus pray that it pop up in my office .. waiting for me to collect it back ... Please come back ...

Dream Wedding ..

2010-03-22T22:12:00.001+08:00

I always had a very very good imagination about weddings .. Everytime when i attend weddings, i feel very very happy and i actually feels that the 2 ppl who is going down the aisle is now being together till old, happy ever after and live a very blissful life ..

These few years, Ive been attending quite a few wedding dinner .. some at Restaurant and should i say mostly at restaurant and some at hotels .. However despite celebrating the newly weds,i feel nowadays wedding is to commercialized .. Basically every steps and itinerary is the same .. Such as ...

Welcoming the guest ..
Newly weds come in throught the door ..
Sits down and food performance by the restaurant ..
Until have way , newly wed is being invited up to the stage to cut cake and pour champagne ..
and both parents go up and yam seng ..
After all that is done,mayb the newly wed is asked to hug o kiss ..
Newlywed will now go table to table for yam seng ..
And thats the end after every food is served and newly wed will b standing at the door to usher guests out ..

Yesterday i attended a wedding in Muar and its the same as above.. And that time my mind wanders abit far .. i start to think about how i would like my wedding be like ...

I know i wan it to be special .. different from all the commercialized wedding .. Last time,i always dream of garden wedding for night.. Fills wid lights everywhere and fireworks to end the night .. it will be really romantic .. For morning, i would like it be like a very traditional Chinese wedding whereby bride will be wearing 'kei po' and groom will be wearing chinese custome wid a big flower tie in front .. And our home will be lighten up wid big red candles like those Chinese traditional wedding in TV ..

Most importantly is actually the meaning of 2 ppl being together .. wedding is jus a process and of coz i always love to be one of those that old man & aunt still holding hand walking at the street eventhough they are 70 - 80 years old .. I feel that it is so sweet .. And i hope during my old days,im like that ...

Genting getaway wid 2 important Man in my life ...

2010-03-21T11:58:00.000+08:00

hehe! Here I am again ..

This week has been real cool to me .. Went up to GeNTING to watch SaMMI'S concert .. I had a great daddy driving me up to the hills and watch it while he will be enjoying his time at the casino or having a cup of hot latte,chilling in the cool weather .. Manage to went in casino before the show and had a few rounds of cards .. Well,luck not tat good today though .. haha! tHe casino was rather pack wid aunties an uncles!! What surprises me is how ppl place their bet .. At a point of time i saw this guy .. putting chips like 5 chip of rm500 and on top of that 5-6 chipz of rm100 .. jus for a round of Baccarat .. woooSHH .. I was like eyes oso open damn wide .. eventhough my eyes was really small .. doesnt make any diff .. Lucky enuf for him that he won that round .. Well,this time around i got to kno that in casino u got a few privilege .. first,there are places who is open for UMUM .. and yet daddy said have u gone in seen the International Room?Free drinks is served .. and its ginseng tea .. I was like it is meant to cool you down if u lose the money?or is it a pscycho for u to have the ginseng such that u r braver to bet more money?ha!

Went to Sammi's concert after have free dinner buffet at Terrace Coffee .. Kenneth went there wid me .. We were seated i would say near to the stage .. It was jus 10+ rows away from the stage ..Near in the sense that we are able to see Sammi's real person .. The concert was awesome .. Sammi pull it off wif a range of 'Lady Gaga's fashion sense of clothes .. There are rock songs and also love songs .. But wat pissed me off a while was the ppl who stand up and jus block the view for ppl who are sitting behind them .. Which i m one of them .. For those ppl , i would call them abunch of 'ATTENTION SEEKERS' that they thought by stading up in some way Sammi would have seen them .. and nevertheless to say selfish enuf that they only think about themselve wanted to see and not the ppl sitting behind of them .. Atone point of time,i always crumbled up some paper and feeling like throwing it to them .. Well,human nature mayb?If only this world fills wid compassion and care for each other and having a big huge heart .. Sammi to my experience is a real straight forward , auntentic and funny performer . Thumbs Up to her!!

The concert ended quite early though as she had another more round on Saturday .. Went back up to casino to find my daddy .. He was there and gave me a sum of money to play .. I was looking at the chip and ask my dad,if i didnt use it to gamble,can i jus take this money to save in bank?He looked at me at smile ,and of coz im jus joking .. taking dads money to save in bank , ma as well i earn my own money and save it .. Not going to be so dependent on him anymroe like last time .. More so im grown up edi and time passess im 25 this year .. OH NO !!! ... Went for rounds of card again .. Luck was really not that good this time around .. as last time always went i went up i ended up helping my dad to win money.. hehe! but lucky enuf that from losing few hundreds i end up losing rm50..

Well i always have this thinking about gambling .. To me , gambling was never really good afterall .. It was okay if u kno ur own limits and play for relaxing .. But its a definitely NO NO for those who gamble for their future .. Using all the money,gamble house and eventually lost everything ? I sometime went into casino and i observed alots of things ..

After the casino tour,we had our quick drink at the Coffee Bean and came down after that .. Cool and chilling night .. Sammi, i love you and ur songs! U r awesome .. ..
=)

hAkka mEe at Seremban ~ di sebalik Tabir ..

2010-03-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

Its been a few times that i had this famously Hakka Mee in Seremban ..and this time i choose to blog about this behind the scene .. untold story of the Hakka Mee .. something strike me to do so .. haha!

First time i was brought by Kenneth to eat at this shop .. old style shop,basically 1 woman wid cap cooking the mee in front of the shop, a few table available .. simple as that .. but what unique about this shop is .. ? Nowadays this era,opening own business its about good service,serve the client wid manners,smile ..... but this shop is totally the opposite .. But the mee was faboulously delicious ... And it is meant for ppl who knows how to wait .. Why did i say so? ..

The woman basically to my knowledge and my several times being there , never even smile .. And seriously no music needed in this shop,as all the while that u been there u will see the woman screaming to her maid .. and fantastically arguing wid the husband .. Enough of music to listen rite?

As i was told by Kenneth,without the arguing and screaming part,the Hakka mee wouldn't have taste so nice .. so i think the recipe of the Hakka Mee itself included wid the screaming and the amount of saliva went in the noodle perhaps? My imagination ... But hell yeah , it taaste really good and its a MUST TRY i must say ..

Well,for ppl who donno how this shop operate,follow this instruction, first , go in and jus order what u need to the woman .. Regardless she answer u back o not.. If u think she didnt hear,u r wrong .. If u try to repeat , chances are u might kena shoot by the woman .. Jus order and have ur seat..
Second, wait at ur seat .. and i mean WAIT .. regardless how long it takes .. It will come eventually .. If she forget whut u order she will ask u by then ..
Thirdly when ur order is serve,of coz, eat la.. Dont worry of the amount of time that u been waiting becoz during this time u will b entertain by the 'music' that ive mentioned earlier ..
After eating , jus pay the bill .. well * If u say pay the bill if she dont answer you,dont try to be clever to repeat,coz if not .. youll kena shoot .. so jus shout at the voice range that she can hear and WAIT ... haha!

It entertains me sometime to see this environment and how this stall can sustain till so long .. Sometime come to think about it,does service matters or the product itself that play the roles .. Definitely something unique wid this shop .. Free to drop by whenever you r at Seremban .. If dunno where jus beep Kenneth and ask him where is the " Lan Si Hakka Mee" is located and he will freely tell you where .. haha!

KWSP interview ...

2010-02-10T16:00:00.000+08:00

Last week i received a call from Kwsp , they are calling me for an interview for the post of assistant manager .. Today is the day of the interview .. Well , i jus came back from KWSP headquarter in Jln Raja Laut .. One word, it was a remarkable experience .. This time around i didnt feel the nervousness running inside me .. as i take it easily and it was like come what may .. Interview suppose to take time at 2.30 .. reach there around 2.15..And of coz .. to prepare myself i wore a red baju kurung to interview today ! =)

Had my application form filled and answer a question wid max 300 letters .. =) Well jus write everything that came from the heart .. I was the 2nd one to b interviewed .. There are 5 ppl to be interviewed for this post .. Suppose to b 6 ppl,but one tarik diri .. While waiting inside the meeting room, had a chat wid a malay gurl who is there for the same thing too .. Basically,im the only chinese again .. ( well,in uni due to the course i took,im the only chinese there too ) .. =) So i kinda use to the situation edi .. =)

Well,my turn came,went into the interview room,saw 5 ppl on the other side .. To my surprise ,they are all difference races .. I was surprise that there were Chinese who work in KWSP too .. (3 malay,1 chinese,1 indian) .. It was really a relaxing moment to me ..as i jus answer every question they ask .. Well,the room was filled with laughter .. It didnt really seems like an interview as much it seems like a conversation typo .. Well they do as question as interviews do .. And they did ask funny question too .. It was really an enjoyable session .. Be it i get the pose o not, i feel i got nothing to lose .. The interview itself has already taught me great lessons and experience .. I jus feel so happy right now ..

It was indeed a great experience jus by the interview itself .. I did my part and im really happy for my performance today .. i thought i did great .. =) love today ....

Spring Cleaning ..

2010-02-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

1/2/2010 ...
While everyone busy shopping and buying stuff for CNY,Ive been at home all day to clean my ..... ROOM .. Well, its not even house yet .. Spend my whole day cleaning my room and guess what,ive not finish cleaning it yet .. its jus a part that is clean which is my wardrobe .. WOW .. ive been thinking what have i done or stuffed in my room that i cant finish cleaning it for 1 day .. hehe! The toilet is not clean yet .. Floor not been mopped yet .. Started at 11am this morning and kinda like sitting blogging now wid my enhaustion at i declared stop time at 6.30pm , i jus manage to have pack 3 garbage bags full of 'stuffs' .. and yet my room is still got a lot of construction to do .. wahlao eh .. Just a room can be so time consuming .. what about a house? hahahah!

Well eventhough im very exhausted right now .. i do enjoy the process of cleaning it .. knowing that my room will not be the same again anymre .. Last time i use to keep all the things,mm seh tak throw it .. but it wont work .. This time no mercy ... Not gonna keep things that i dont use anymore .. Half success for today ... Gonna be a part 2 ... and my room will transform .. hahha!

NIKI,the celebrity!!

2010-01-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,went wid mummy to The Pet Family,Kelana Jaya to buy some dog food and send my doggie to grooming before CNY .. have him be handsome through this auspicious day .. Went up and send him to the grooming room and went to see the available cutey doggie on the display box.. A poster capture my sight and i was like 'Mummy,this looks like Ni ... NO MUM,this is Niki!!! He is on the poster .. looking so handsomely being the spokeperson for 'Bark' dog food .. WHAT A SURPRISE .. Mummy couldnt believe it at first .. Then manage to see the similarity and thats the photo that we took at the shop itself ..

Then came a sight of a GIGANTIC banner hanging jus beside the stairs .. ITS NIKI AGAIN .. and this one was really huge .. Then suddenly came in one by one .. The poster was niki .. the gigantic banner has niki's big big handsome face one it .. and even the tiny version of him hanging on the ceiling and one the price tag .. Suddenly i jus feel that he is so famous .. Mummy was so happy as she always think that Niki was so handsome and is so wasted that no one took him to be the 'spokesperson'.. haha! Seems like her dream came TRUE!!

By the way , Niki is my golden retriever .. =)

Experience of 'buang-ing' ppl ...

2010-01-23T13:51:00.000+08:00

For past few months,ive hire a indi guy to help me out in my work to distribute book.Well,it really wasnt a very responsible guy it seems that he took off whereby agreement is made that he got to work jus 3 days in a week and 2 hours.Be it,if cant come for work then find ppl to replace.. Its okie if u take leave for emergency reason..Not that im so cruel enough to not let you go.Take leave without any reason nvm,give hell lots of excuses .. pening kepala ..

Recently, he's been getting real ridiculous that i tot i cant tolerate him anymore. Sending me sms in the morning say got MC can work .. ask him to find replacement,ask me back if i cant find how? Memang wont find edi la say like that .. then later call me, give me excuses say got denggi this and that .. wid a bunch of excuses why he CANT do it .. ok nvm .. ask him to set a time to hand me back the returned book,dilly dally .. and set 4 pm .. then call back later say wanna change time .. long story la .. ENOUGH!!

Waited at Mobil .. pass 4.30 edi .. no call no sign of ppl coming .. call him , he dare telling me 'Jynnie,sini hujan lebat la' .. Say reach at 4 , late oso never call .. what do u think ill do ? warn him to get his ass ere and give me back those book .. Reach ere give me tonnes of excuses again .. saying doc say he needs to stay at hospital this and that! say insurance not covering him coz he came out and now he got to pay himself .. Victim? such a nice story ...

ENOUGH is ENOUGH !! Tolerate oso got limit .. Mummy ask to give him a second chance .. Without having much thought, i decided to fire him .. cause the only thing in my mind is if i dont fire him,i feel sorry for myself .. cant accept not firing him .. Sorry Mum.. i rather been doing the work myself rather than paying a person which is not responsible towards work .. Im sure there are alot of betters one who is willing to work and responsible out there .. My god!!

2010-01-22T15:50:00.000+08:00

My life has been rollercoaster this month especially this very week .. im glad that i always have a mentor wid me to really wake me up in times of turbulence .. had been encountering alot of different different situation whether its good nor otherwise .. however it is,everything that happens there r things to learn from it ..

Being in the biz work, whether i like it o not .. its always dont go as how i want it to be .. if life can b so peaceful,it may as well sounds dead .. same in the biz world .. im a freshman in biz world and i had alot of things that i encountered for first time .. Many times i will beat up myself when things dont go my way .. and question myself whether o not what i do appropriate o should i b like this .. I still had a long way to learn in this biz world .. today i told myself .. nothing can stop me .. no matter how many challenges that its gonna be,it will never stop me from going forward..
True enough there are times tat i couldnt get up from the breakdown and keep beating myself on why what happen and whut should i do .. all i can say is to put word simple .. how do u call a promoter to b a controller in jus 1 day time .. what i am struggling is not more than to b stern and firm in this line ..

Guess Jynnie the firm and stern girl is on the way .... =p

Lil' note ...

2009-12-29T12:34:00.000+08:00

WOW .. seems like it been real long since i last blog .. well it mayb a good thing as im been pretty busy lately .. Recently ive been coming up and thinking about way to earn money .. there are times when i feel lazy and jus wanna sit on the couch watching tv,but there are times when i told myself this aint gonna work .. im jus 24 and this is my time to really stretch all my strength out and earn as much money as i can ..

Dadddy told me yesterday my age now is the golden time for me to earn money .. such that future my life will be better .. Sweetness come after bitterness .. dont ever let sweetness come before bitterness.. this is what i always tell myself ..

Well,no doubt whenever i had my conversation wid daddy .. he always motivates me and give me his point of view in biz that its eye opening for me and drive me more to go for it .. my biggest weakness is being lazy .. Guess i got to erase that weakness out of me , such that i can go achieve something during my golden time .. i CAN b lazy .. thats when ive achieve my goal and everything in life, thats the time i can go shopping , vacationning , eating fine foods and stuffs .. It will never b too long when i achieve it..

There is nothing that is 50 50 ..is either you want it o not.. if you got the intention to do it .. be it the intention 100% and go all the way do the best .. you create only the best .. if not better do not do it! Quote by my daddy ..

DAdDy & MUmMY B'DAY bAsHhHhhHh ...

2009-12-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

This year was quite special .. wE celebrate daddy and mummy's bday together in one day .. Mum and Dad's birthday's date was not far .. jus 8 days oni .. Earlier on booked a room in Golden Dragonboat .. Mum's favourite restaurant and invited my aunts for this celebration too .. We even bought a dozen of red wine day before .. all plan to get drunk in the afternoon .. haha! To me, this day was really special to celebrate more than jus a bday .. it is sort of a big reunion in our family .. Our tradition when we celebrate many of us come together and have reunion which is to me so warm and simple beautiful ..

Delicious food were served and it manage to hold us up to the next morning without taking dinner after that!! The food were so good as it need reservation days before...take a peek at what we had for lunch that day ..

The hot and cold platter ..

Daddy's favourite suckling pig ...

This is good .. the 'Hoi Sum' is so huge!!I guess when my bro's gf and kenneth saw this they kno whut to say .. 'Eh ' so same geh! Mum used to cook a dinner where the dish is all the same like this so whenever they go to any restaurant that served this .. they will jus look at my mum and say the same exact word and needless to say my mum smile so happily .. why not rite .. erm erm erm appreciate her cooking woh .. hehe!

A very happy family .. 2 addition to our family .. During lunch,topic such as wedding bells,babies,mum and father in law was flying around .. Guess sometime is jus so pai seh dunno how to Tai Chi all this topic .. haha!When this kind of topic is raised up,it brings the environment and energy higher .. Guess when everyone come to a certain age,things like this makes them really happy and looking forward too ..

Their birthday cake .. This cake was kinda last minute buy as jus last minute la .. haha~ its Baskin Robbin .. Nice ice cream to be the last to be eaten during lunch .. I always like the big family picture .. When i look at it,a very big smile will b formed on my face .. To me nothing is more precious than this .. Being able to b as one big family and share the happiness together .. Its jus something money cant buy .. And i always remember moment like this ...

Happy birthday daddy and mummy ..Daddy look so vibrant in this long sleeve .. =)

After the full lunch,we went Pavillion and have our Karaoke session .. All my aunts have gone shopping .. as they are not really fancy about singing K .. hehe!Well a for me .. Its time to ROCK wid our voice .. =)

So got the feel .. Totally surrender and giving all out .. haha!

It was really a great great day and unforgetable ones .... Its beyond words .. =)

'FEEL-ing' Day ...

2009-11-16T13:27:00.000+08:00

It was weekend when i woke up 6am to drive my mum to Sri Permaisuri for a morning jog .. as usual mummy complete her first round and jog during the 2nd one .. as for long time no do sport for me, i will jus walk a big round breathing the fresh air .. As i come close to a pond .. i saw this duck .. the only duck in the big big pond .. It was there went i went for the past few months but never come to give attention like i gave it today ..

The ducky was so near to the runway .. what makes me sad is the condition the place that it lives .. the pond is polluted wid oil .. a big piece of it .. and its so so dirty .. Ive stopped and i look at the duck .. amazingly i got kinda connected to it .. sounds spooky but i mayb relating the feeling to it .. i feel so sad .. for it to b alone in this pond .. living in such unpleasant pond .. At a point of time i thought wanted to save it out .. but i have no idea how to jaga him .. there are alot of ppl jogging by but seems like none of them pay attention to this little duck ..

How are we as a person b responsible to protect out mother nature .. not to polute is because is jus not human who is living in this world .. there are others such as animal and living creatures .. Dont b so selfish to jus think of urself oni and neglect others .. We share this world together and please do ur own part to protect the environment .. its the place we live in ..

hApPy fAmiLy ADDition ...

2009-11-09T16:35:00.000+08:00

Today suddenly got the 'kik' to blog about something that i personally felt that its very meaningful and bring me joy and happiness .. nevertheless, i felt my family feel this way too .. it is really something that worth to b celebrated ..

Almost 8 months ago,i started going out wid this crazy fella that i never though of one day he will be my bf .. Before i really knew him i would say,he is this quiet fella but a very nice guy indeed .. gentleman .. now kno him for so long edi .. hmm .. he is as a crazy as me o even more crazy though .. can see the other side of him .. a guy wid vision and working real hard towards it now ..

Its him lo .. who else .. haha .. the guy who use his lung to talk one ge lo .. haha! Kenneth Lim..

Brought him back to my house and get to kno my parents .. what makes me happy is that he can get along wid my parents really well .. got talk got laugh..

Here comes another addition to my family .. something that i proud of .. MY BRO HAD A GF .. WOOHOO .. something that really got to celebrate .. he's been sharing to me that he like this gurl .. but at first it doesnt seem that really have the hope .. but wid his iron will .. gosh .. he really succeeded .. i do believe if u never give up .. everything will come ur way .. no matter how impossible is it .. like the slogan "NOTHIN IS IMPOSSIBLE" but i would like to add something behind and it would be .. "NOTHIN IS IMPOSSIBLE IF YOU WORKS TOWARDS IT WITHOUT GIVING UP" .. be it in relationship,work and social ..

Mummy was rather surprised at first when bro told her that he got a gf .. hehe! but after a few meet up and steamboat nite .. my parents and her get along too .. now we were like biggy happy family ..

NOW .. take a look at my big happy family ... the more the merrier .. its so nice .. !! my daddy and mummy smile so big .. =)

~ I LOVE MY FAMILY ... ~

Seremban get a way ..

2009-11-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

This weekend has been meaningful for me .. Went back to Seremban wid Kenneth to visit her parents and family .. Its the 2nd time ive been ere since few months ago .. Brought my bro to go eat hakka mee wid his gf . haha! Drive all the way to Seremban jus to have that bowl of Hakka Mee and tapau some Siew Pou back home for mummy .. Whereelse im going to stay ere till Sunday .. =)

First day was rather hectic .. drive all the way eat hakka me and occupied my time without having any rest .. was tired around 10 ++ .. funny thing happen though .. was singing karaoke in his house and suddenly his dad came back .. terus saja i stop ..malu ma .. hahah!then went out for dinner together .. was rather reserved though .. still shy i think ..

Today is the 2nd day .. what impressed me about today is the way they eat breakfast and the things that they eat .. woke up aroung 10++ today brush my teeth and went down .. whole family already gather at the table .. what served was Siew Bao, Siew yuk,egg tart and bread .. and not to forget .. Tong sui .. Its like for me a very traditional way of eating breakfast .. its like as you see on the drama series ..

Sunday was rather a relaxing weekend ere .. what i realize is everyone in the family is handling the housework .. mummy drying clothes,daddy fixing the fan,sis folding up clothes and him washing car .. Its diffrerent back in KL .. well at least i felt different .. ere u feel very homey and relax and dont really has all those hectic life that u had in KL .. ere can sense the calmness the fresh air .. where else kl u can smell dust and all those car honks repeatedly ..

Well if u ask me where would i rather be .. my answer is still in KL .. i miss those night life and shopping centre especially .. haha! to me , this environment is good .. but i will make it as a thought if im 70 years old .. as this place is a nice,calm and relax place for me to spend my end life relaxingly with my partner of my life .. Mayb im still young therefore my fire is very big now . cant jus put in myself in this kind of environment .. =) still need to fight for living though .. for now i love the life that is exciting,challenging and obviously im the kind that cannot be at home for the whole week not going out .. haha!

meat sliced wrapped chinese wintermelon ..

2009-11-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

Once i went to Matt's house and ate this dish called 'meat sliced wrapped chinese wintermelon' .. thats the name i give after translate straight from Cantonese .. haah! it was made by Catherine and it was so delicious . Overheard its Michael Chai's favourite dish whenevery he go visit Matt .. haha .. It was a very interesting dish that i ask some points from the Sifu who made this which is Catherine to teach me .. hehe! wanted to make it for my family and bf to eat .. It was quite easy when i hear it but when doing it its a totally different thing .. haha..

Prepared the things to buy and had my mum bought all the ingredients from the morning market .. Its was nice preparing the wintermelon, wrapping it up and all the process in between .. In between called Cathering for guidance on how to make the meat taste good and so on .. haha! pretty lousy too me ..

Ingredient used to make his dish .. Mummy was a great helper too .. Guiding me from steps to steps .. =)

This is the 2nd step where the sliced meat is wrapped with the chinese wintermelon inside .. Looks nice to me .. hehe! but was kinda nervous wat it would turn out to be . keep worrying is it nice o not . haha!After all the preparation was done .. it was time to fried up those cute little meat rolls .. As i m not used to cooking and actually was 'puteri lilin', i stayed far away from the wok .. as i scared the oil will jump to me .. but it did too .. and i sreamed my lungs out .. this part my mum plAYED an important role that is to ensure the meat is masak .. haha!

My bf came half way through the process and laughed at me when he see me like so clumsy i would say .. coz ive never been cooking and i jus kno simple simple stuffs . but im good in soups okay .. haha! wait till you try it .. sure you want it more ..

This is the end result after jumping around in the kitchen to avoid the oil touching my hands .. was quite proud coz it turn out to be nice .. but in terms of taste .. its time to try it .. =) Its dinner time and i was so nervous whether it would b nice o not .. And it turns out .. cool .. everyone likes it .. and my bf likes it .. bro oso like it .. but i was doubting myself at that point coz when i try it was okay coz i feel the meat is to thick .. mummy love it as well but she dont really liek sweet stuffs .. =)

Now that i learn my first dish .. Improve improve and improve .. Mayb western food next time? let me inspiration come and i will cook again .. =)

I'm hurrrt ...

2009-10-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

When you said , " What you're doing now its because ppl give face to ur father .." do you kno how i feel that time? Ppl close to me saying that to me .. All this while ive been working and do lotsa things that ive never done before .. Occupied my time with learning all the new things .. facing up to the 'real' world .. I tot myself that i have a lil achievement that i can b a bit proud off and celebrate even i still got a very long way to go to be really successful .. But when you said that it jus made me feel like its all useless and no meaning anymore .. Do u kno how much it hurts me?

When i wanted to care for you .. told u everything whut i feel from my heart ..how much it matters to me, and how much i care for you ..having u see why we reacted this way , whuts the reason behind and having u see our point of view .. you Shut it off by saying "are you done talking?" .. and replied .. 'What ive said ,ive said before .. i do not want to repeat it anymore. " Thats how u shut us off from you .. i dont think you have any idea how hurt it could b to hear it from the mouth of someone you love .. if you kno how it feel, you wouldnt have said it ..

We just want to share your loads .. no matter u r happy o u r sad .. we jus wanna kno coz we care .. Nothing else .. No one wants to see the one they love keep all the thing to itself .. What i say you wont hear , what i share you wont listen .. you have ur own set of idea and everytime you will only say ive said it before and i wont repeat and shut me off ..

Im worry and i really dont know what to do .. I really do not know how long i could endure .. May it works o not .. I dont kno what will b in future .. but as for now I'm really hurt .. and i do not know will only you listen to me .. I REALLY DONNO ..

The only way that i will not care is when you do not matter to me anymore .. and based on it , im afraid that day will come ... I'm once again at crossroad and my mind is blank ..

AWlympic 1st sPoRtz DaY .. 27/09/09

2009-09-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

Its the first day of games in AWlympic after the balloting and the launching .. Had a great great time at the AWlympic as i been able to meet all my frenz that ive not seen for somewhile .. It kick off wid the flag raising and oso the singing of Negaraku .. nearly forget how to sing it .. woossHH!! THen off we go to the first event which is the cheerleading ..

I was so impressed by the cheerleading of the Pinkie group .. they did an aweome job .. very nice! In fact to me was the best .. never to forget my Greenie with there 'I Gotta Feeling' hit it off and the crowd enjoyed it .. Totally pumped up everyone energy before launching the Marathon wid Bumble BeE,Sailormoon, Girl guide and all .. Nice scene to watch .. hehe!

The mighty Bumble Bee has transformed from a car .. GO GO GO YEW KHUAY!!

After sendin the marathon off , starts the event that im participating in (drum rolls) 'MAHJONG' .. haha!Gone thru the 1st round and the Semi finals .. Was pretty nervous during the FINAL ROUND .. its like so tense .. tried my best to make jokes but no one continues it .. so its pretty stress though .. nvm lo .. i jus syok sendiri .. happy laughing all the way .. hahah! It was pure luck as all my tiles was very very nice every round wid alot of flowers .. i manage to eat 'siu sei hei' , '4 fei' and 'tin wu' .. and i became the winner that day ..!! and i got the title 'Queen of Mahjong' .. OH SWEET .. it wasnt really good to b known best for gambling though .. =( haha! its was overwhelming experience being crowned .. haha!

Do u feel the tension in between? two GREEN to one Pink .. Poor Chloe . but we had a great time laughing all the way while playing which was not shown in the pic .. we were the loudest in the room .. haha!

After the final round .. posing for the camera after a 'tension' game ..haha!

Prize giving session .. Everyone was cheering and supporting .. Congratulating the winners ..!! Spirit of sportsmanship ..

This was given by Matt .. haha! In front is a word ' Jiok ' and this is ' Wong ' .. basically its called Queen of Mahjong ..

Mahjong Kings and Queens kissing their medals .. haha!

Played a few rounds of darts and went of to support Greenie and Pinkie on the board games .. In between having some gossips break ere n there .. Nice having everyone around and totally enjoy moments there .. its a relaxing , challenging , get together day .. love it so much ..

6th month Anniversary ,. a surprise present from HIM ..

2009-09-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

wE wished each other during every month of our 'aNNIversary' being together .. But to my surprise he has made something special for me on this 6th month of being 2gether .. Of coz without my knowledge .. More so, for this month ive forgetten the date when it comes .. =p Just because i kenakan him on his bday .. He took revenge .. What a GOOD bf that i have .. Chiuuu !!

Well,it was around 12 midnite when he tell me that he got something to show me and lead me to his laptop .. Open it and as soon as i saw the title '6 month' .. I knew it .. Tat moment i recall today's date .. My tears started to flow when it started .. Such a sweet and lovey video that he had for me .. It marks every moment that we have the sweetness and bitterness .. Ups and downs ....the most precious was the laughter that we had when we r together .. Its priceless .. Its true we had alot of dramas along ... but there is where we learn and grow from there .. I love you and appreciate whut you've done for me .. not jus this video .. in every second that im with you ..

A little sharing ...

coUsIN wEdDing 21/09/09 ..

2009-09-28T16:05:00.001+08:00

He has been the one that i'm really close to when i was small .. we always visit each other and play around the house as we live next to each other .. 21/09/09 was a really special and memorable day for him as he is getting married with the love of his life ... as usual we as his cousins were having alot of fun during the wedding dinner .. going around taking silly photos and so called co ordinating the whole dinner .. haha! having everyone posing and take pics .. crazy nite .. well in the morning before, being his so called ' heng tai ' went to the bride house jus to pose without helpin him to go thru the challenge .. example , eating 'shitz' and wearing undergarments .. ahah! too bad he got to go thru as a part of it .. a morning to remember ..

As the nite come,i went to prepare myself .. gettin myself a make up and make sure that im lookin pretty that nite coz its my beloved cousins wedding .. really happy for him .. seeing a couple tied theire knot and living happily ever after .. i guess its always in me .. i love going to wedding , when i saw a couple walking in .. i had imagination and feel really happy that ppl in love now can live happily ever after and its really a sweet moment ..

A nice photo with my auntie .. She is happy that nite .. =)

y family photo ... the gurl beside my bro is Ling Ling (bro's gf) hehe... Bro told me this pic is incomplete becoz one person is missing .. he is suppose to fill the empty space beside my bro .. U kno who u are . hehe! of coz my dear Kenneth . but he was at Perhentian to do his project .. Anyway, we had a great great time and my bro continously introducing his gf to all the ppl there .. haha! COOL!!!

Yum sing session .. Look at our happy faces .. =)

A touching moment and a moment to b remembered forever .. This photo strikes me and i feel its really the nicest photo on dat day .. Sweet ..!! A photo tells it all... Congratulations to my aunt and uncle and of coz my cousin Jer Yee ..

Crazee pose from fellow cousins .. As we really love taking photos , we had a few posers photo at dat nite .. haha!

Before the nite ends, a big family photo .. A get together of aunties and uncles from all over the place .. A big reunion ... Definitely a moment money cant buy ...

mY aRtWork - prEsSie for HIM for his B day ..

2009-09-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

Ive been out on a day to gather all the things that i would need to use to make this photo album .. Things like the most important photo album .. stickers, present papers , scissors, uhu game , to all the tiny tiny little things that helped me to finish this artwork that im so proud of ..

Been spending an amount of time to have it finish .. from the idea how it should have look like to idea on decorating each page wid different theme .. it takes patient and love to do this .. and im very happy of the outcome of it .. and the most happy thing that he love this album very much .. guess everything is worth it .. =)

This is the first page of the album .. i love this page and i love the cake .. specially made forhim .. in this page , fill wid my message for him and my bday wishes for him ..

this is the 2nd page of the album .. and this is where is all begins ..

A compilation pictures of me and him ..

This was taken at T.G.I.F at Pavillion ..

the pic on the right is taken during Life Game .. this is how he strangle me in life .. haha!
Photos from my graduation day ..

~SWEET MEMORIES LASTS FOREVER .. ~

Galaxy's 15th Anniversary cOncErt at BuKit jAliL ..

2009-09-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

It was an AWESOME concert!!! no doubt about it .. even though near half way the power is down .. later that i got to kno its becoz the generator is burned .. Kenneth who was beside me saw the smoke coming up .. haha!

Its great to see so many artist all over the world from our very own country Malaysia , China, Singapore, Thailand , Taiwan and also not to b forgotten Hong Kong .. Among the artists were Chang Zhi Chen , Singapore talent show winner who is blind , i kinda forget his name .. i think it sounds like this chen yi lian .. Kay Tze , Justin , David tao , Fang Da Tong, Joey Yung ,Lee Shen Jie, Dong Li Huo Che ( Power Station ) , and alot alot more ..

But i was mesmerised by the performance from the Singapore male singer .. He was blind and yet he perform in this big stage .. At a point of time .. my eyes is filled with tears .. i was inspired by his courage, his heart , his being .. A man who has lost his sight .. standing on the big stage performing to more than 5000 audience but he couldnt see them .. i jus couldnt express how i feel about this man .. he is jus so inspiring .. and he is one man that i really respect ..

I enjoyed the concert very very much as all the performers were really great .. Really going all out to have this happen .. and due to the power breakdown .. the concert actually ends at around near 2 am .. Its a wonderful nite!!

lOst of my left ToE nAiL ... =(

2009-09-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

Well .. i jus accepted that ive lost my left toe nail ever since afternoon .. =(

It kinda happen when i step to the 'penutup longkang' and the next thing i kno my nail went from straight to senget 90 degree .. oh god .. its jus split second .. i dont remember how it happened but next thing i knew it kept bleeding and the whole look of my toe nail wasnt very pleasant .. Of coz at dat time i was so panic .. and whut i could only do is jus to stare at my toe nail blankly and stoned there..

I was rushed to clinic .. wasnt crying .. but as soon as i was lay to the so called bed .. i started crying frantically .. non stop .. like whut they call .. cry until like someone dies .. i think the whole clinic was filled wid my scream n cry .. i screamed when the doc inject the antiseptic to my toe .. i cried and shout loudly when he take off my toe nail .. basically my whole toe nail is GONE .. and whuts the fun part was .. he put those antiseptic to clean my wound . but instead of jus cleaning .. he squeeze it .. the psychical sensation was soooooo .... there was alot of blood clots .. and my ' toe thumb' its actually injured ..

Well .. this is the first time it happened to me .. and its quite drama though in the clinic .. till the doc was afraid of me .. coz the way i scream and cried .. but i really got to admit .. its damn freaking pain .. cant hardly walk ..

I hope that the wound will recover real soon ..and i will get a nice toe nail in the future ...

' PAKU ' lesson ..

2009-08-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

A story of a Paku lesson ..

Ingredient :
36 pakuS
1 blank paper

Whenever u feel the grundgies feeling , pinch 1 paku in the blank paper .. When the paku finishes .. then u might wanna do it vice versa .. Whenever u feel like to have the grundgies feeling,hold it, be patient and get over it .. do not let it out and settle it wid a calm heart .. Then if u manage to do so , kindly take 1 paku off the same sheet of paper.. Everytime you manage to control it,continue the same thing .. until every paku has been taken out ..

NOW , look at the sheet of paper .. What do you see? Its fills wid 36 holes on it .. It reflects the amount of time that u ve hurt ppl around you whenever u lose ur temper and had the grundgies feeling .. Could u mend it? NO .. Its awares us that whenever we wanna lose our temper .. take a deep breath and think of how many ppl around you that will get hurt jus becoz of your grundgies feeling ...

Something in life , some things we can mend it .. but not if you hurt his/her feelings .. Sometime we can prevent it from happening ..

* grungies feeling : feeling of angry,frustrated, intended to hurt someone in any way (feelings,or etc) ..

Simple exercise , GREAT lesson ..
This is a great lesson that ive learn from a great person .. =)
Hope that it will bring a light to you guys out there too after reading this ..

mY mEmOrAbLe ConVoCAtiOn ..

2009-08-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

Its been 3 days after my convo .. Now only had the time to blog as ive been pretty busy lately wid my works and convo .. Thinking back on dat day it was really really a great journey all the way from the first day i step in to Upm .. On the convocation day itself .. i felt everything that ive put in, has paid up and really really worth it .. On that very special day .. my heart had a lot of 'undescribeable' feeling ..

1. Im so proud of myself that ive made it so far and finally graduated with a result that i m so proud of and its a miracle to me ..

*Nevertheless,when im up on the stage . i feel so proud that im the only Chinese that receive the scroll from Pro Canselor for my course which is ' Bahasa Linguistik Melayu '. That point of time i feel so proud of myself ..

So HAPPY and PROUD ..

2. I feel so thankful for my parent that has been there for me and supporting me all they through ups and downs .. Never give up on me ..

* On dat day, i felt that they were really really happy and very proud of me .. This is the very accomplishment that i feel so proud off .. Later in the evening sent them an sms in Mandarin writing ' BABA MAMA , Mei you ni men jiu mei you jin tian de wo ' .. Never forgets my brother too .. He has been a real great brother in my life and helping me through ..

This is my happy family ..

3. I feel so grateful and thankful for my boyfren .. He was there be4 the convocation starts .. to see me before i went in to the hall .. and he helps me handle all my frens call n guide them to UPM ..And he waits and teman by my bro from 1-4pm n went back to Upm to wait for me to be out of the hall .. He has been really supporting to me and help me thru the whole convocation .. He has been really understanding tat day.. Love you always ..

This is my lovely boyfren , Kenneth Lim ..

4. I feel that im so famous surrounding by all the SLR'S camera (Canon,Nikon .. ) .. haha .. I would like to thank Zheng Hao, my bro Jason , and Kuan Ming for taking nice and wonderful picture of me and my family ..

5. Appreciation is a word that i would use to all my frens who came on dat day including Penny,Chia Ying,Shang Hong,Kuan Ming, Chee Hoe, Zheng Hao,Gerard and Keng Yee .. Ur presence makes my convocation even more special .. Been able to spend this special moment wid u guys .. extremely remarkable ..

6.Nevertheless . warm wishes from my buddies and frens who is not able to make it to my convo .. i love you guys ..

Its really been a wonderful Convocation for me .. ItS the end of one important phase in my life and a starting point for a new phase .. I will miss UPM .. and all my frens there .. Definitely will hope one day if given the opportunities that i will visit my beloved Uni and continuing my Masters there ..

Here are some of the memorables photos that ive took ..

A kiss from Mum and Daddy..

A warm pic wid my bro, Jason ..

My High School Classmate (5K2)
From left : Penny , Me , Chia Ying and Shang Hong ..

A nice smile from Zheng Hao ..

My Form 6's mates .. Kuan Ming and Chee Hoe ..All da way from Cameron .. Mr Gerard Richard .. Bestest buddy , Keng Yee ..

My beloved coursemates .. =)

A ~Beautiful Surprise~..... that didnt work out ..

2009-08-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

This is how it started .. Went to shopping wid my boyfren yesterday at One U .. its was a great time and great shopping spree session .. We were hunting for clothes and stuff while Kenneth wanted to buy clothes and shoes .. We were searching everywhere for nice shoes and we ended up in Timberland .. He saw a pair of shoe dat he like very much.He wanted a size 9 but unfortunately the store oni has size 8 o 10 .. =( So in the end we didnt purchase it .. Time was running out as i need to go back at 5 to go work .. We soon decides that we will go Mid Valley to search for it after my work ..

Went to Mid Valley .. searched in Timberland outlet, Metrojaya and also Garden's Isetan .. couldnt find the right size .. seems to be a shoe that is very hot in da market .. Well,eventhough he didnt say .. i kno he was quite disaapointed though .. If he dont like it,he wouldnt have search it everywhere ..

This Monday morning .. I went to work as usual .. and around afternoon i supposed to drive mummy tooo Great Eastern Mall .. Remembered there has Timberland too .. Was thinking to get him the 'Timberland Shoe Shoe" as a SURPRISE present .. Reach there search inside .. i think the shop close down edi .. and i recalled KLCC has Timberland outlet too .. Time was limited but rushed there too .. At last found the last pair which is the display one .. Was quite upset but then kind hearted sale promoter told me that at Sunway outlet they got 3 pairs .. so i gave him my number n have him reserved the shoe for me .. Later on he called me n he said he reserved the shoe for me edi .. I was so happy dat i finally got the shoe reserved and plan to go there later tonite to purchase it,get it wrap and give him as a surprise present ..

Well,Kenneth told me he might b going to Sunway today depending if he finishes his work early .. OK .. Reserving the shoe is done .. now is time to delay him from going there to get the shoe .. i send a msg to him asking him to onli go Sunway on Thurs giving him an excuses as i wanted to go wid him coz i wanted to buy some stuffs there .. he say okay but at the same time he told me he alreadi reached there and going to see whether the have the shoe o not .. Suddenly i felt .. i really cant describe .. it was like oh shit .. gonna stop him from getting that ..

Got the Sunway outlet num from KLCC .. called straight to that .. ask the person whether is there any guy asking for the same shoe for size 9 o not .. n he said yes .. he say he is thinking to buy the display one as all the size 9 has been reserved. n i asked a question that when i thought back now seem ridiculous .. I asked ' Is it possible if u can make him not to buy the display ones?' .. Well, everyone knows the asnwer is NO .. I jus couldnt find a way to have him stop a customer from buying .. So later on i jus told him .. Well,jus cancel my reservation and give the shoe that ive reserved for him to him ..

I was really disappointed at that time becoz ive plan everything on how to give him n picking up the shoe later on tonite .. but it jus didnt happen .. its jus a split second .. I kno he would b really happy if i gave him this surprise that i feel it is really BEAUTIFUL ..

Later , Kenneth sms me saying that he bought the shoe edi .. And he told me ngam ngam got ppl release the reservation pair .. Well,needless to say the person who release it was me .. But i can feel that he is very very happy after he get to buy the shoe .. Well can say everything is worth it .. from me going places to search for it until he sucessfully purchased the shoe .. It doesnt matter anymore coz he is happy after dat ...

Well dat moment of time is jus like .. when u play mahjong .. n u got this '13 yew' and u waiting to win the game .. suddenly another person win faster then u .. hahaha! and i guess this is a 'Beautiful SURPRISE' for me .. haha

great supper gathering at Ah Ju ..

2009-07-31T10:07:00.000+08:00

its been a long time that ive not been back to Asiawork to be in contribution due to work .. a few months if im not mistaken .. Went back for Cash Team on Guest Event yesterday .. i tot i was the alien over there coz ive not been there for awhile n there lots of upcoming n recent lp's dat ive not known .. well, it feels good to b back there n be in contribution .. definitely learn something out of there too .. Manage to catch up wid a few that ive long never seen them edi .. Cool! =)

After da event went to supper wid friends that i really missed n close to .. its really been awhile ever since i started to work ,, it takes up most of my time .. n im really feel very happy that i get to meet them yesterday .. had a great supper .. great conversation .. definitely enjoy it .. eventhough its jus a simple dinner but it felt special to me .. To be able to see them again and talk talk talk .. =) its really satisfying .. being to kno how r they r doing recently, whut r they up to .. it definitely in a way lift up my mood and motivates me to move fwd .. that whut friends are for to me .. its jus in a very miracle way jus by spending a dinner o supper together ,it made a whole lots difference to me ..

This morning i woke up,i feel so blessed and happy .. In a way im boosted wid energy to make today more fulfilling and of coz wid a happy n loving heart .. a simple supper yet a big difference .. have a great day ahead everyone !! love ya guys .. =)

Online Investment ..

2009-07-30T15:18:00.001+08:00

This is something new that ive learnt today .. Early in da morning , there's this gal (Senior Executive *****) *= not sure the post .. hehe.. from Public Bank came to our office n explain to me about share investment using online facilities .. Its very easy actually .. I can buy o sell my shares online .. Old methos is to called up to buy n sell n provide the documents sign everything which used up alot of work .. this one is jus selling n buying online .. COOL!! .. Will learn more about it before start investing in it ..Something very new to me .. =)

steamBOAT in da House ..

2009-07-21T15:40:00.000+08:00

Saturday would be a day for everyone relaxing day and going out wid frens o chilling out somewhere .. Last Saturday .. i choose to be at home and we prepare steamboat for dinner .. Steamboat has been one of my favourite food .. =) no idea y i love it very much .. but jus love it loh .. and wid fried wantan too .. =)Mummy having her fried wantan .. n my doggie is hoping dat mummy will give him a bite too .. hehe!
And we had mummy favourite red wine for the steamboat dinner too .. =)

my doggie cant resist the steamboat as well .. its too nice! =) By the way,his name is Niki ..

Clumsy doll playing Volleyball ..

2009-07-21T15:19:00.001+08:00

This title is specially dedicated to Keng Yee as he is the one who brought me think of this title that rhymes!! Applause to him .. haha!

SUNDAY .. At last there is the moment for me to play volleyball after ive not been playing for 6 years after my secondary life .. gosh .. i was all this while HOPING that someday i can play .. and guess my dream came true .. HAPPY .. im really really very happy n excited ge loh .. i was thinking hmmm so long never play liao , see how shitty is my skill edi .. haha! but to my surprise it wasnt too bad though .. whut makes me happy is i stil manage to serve!! COOL !! .. definitely enjoyed da game wid my hi skool frens dat ive not seem for quite some while ..

Was playing volleyball non stop for 2 hrs .. sorry lo too addicted to it liao .. lama tak main .. we played at the majlis perbandaran serdang if im not mistaken .. n it is to my surprise its INDOOR court .. i even applied few layers of sunblock be4 goin there tim .. wasted .. hehe

As always there is always a price to pay when for so long i didnt play volleyball n once i play play non stop .. guess whuts my price to pay? my precious hand .. pain until speechless lo .. after playing im enjoying the burning sensation n at some point i tot my hand's saraf putus liao .. that made my bf laugh like crazy jus coz i say dat .. whut the ... arent he suppose to care for me despite laughing like crazy ? cheh!

here is my precious hand kena torture by the volley .. haha! but i do definitely enjoy this volleyball game n looking forward for another great match .. im very da happy ge loh !!

pity my hand ..

eatless days , sleepless nights ..

2009-07-18T11:21:00.000+08:00

Today will be the 2nd day that ive been getting nightmares again .. It woke me up at 1.35am after ive been sleeping for jus 1.5 hrs .. from that moment,i cant be able to go back to sleep again .. went down to my living hall .. lying down on my sofa , accompanied by my dog .. been able to rest till 5am this morning .. im not sure why dat ive been getting all this nightmares .. Yesterday was the same thing happened to me .. I kno ive been really tired these days ..been working for long hours .. trying to get some sleep but end up it make me wide awake .. the nightmares seems so real .. i woke up this morning wid ache from my leg and my back .. the moment in the dream it seems so real .. like its really happening to me ......

These 2 days ive no appetite to eat .. see food oso dont feel like eating .. Went to pasar malam yesterday alone to tapau food for dinner and for my parent as well .. Usually there will b varieties of foods avaible at the pasar malam such as rojak,corns,assam laksa,cakes,breads .. i walked thru the whole pasar malam and look at the food jus dont feel like eating it .. Whole day the stomach jus feel so full .. No idea whut happened .. good time for diet gua .. but definitely something is not rite loh ...

sei mou ... rest not enuf eat oso no appetite .. what happppppeeeennnn ??? i wanna sleeeep leeee .. peacefully without any nightmares plzz!!! shooooooo .. go away .. i hate nightmares .. disturbing my sleep n make me scared oni ..

gOodbYe Michael Jackson, King of PoP ..

2009-07-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

Ive been listening to his songs since i was young .. He was already famous ever since i came to this world .. His songs inspires the world and he fights for humanity and change .. He is indeed a legacy .. He is gone far too soon and a great loss to the world ... Watched his memorial this morning .. Heard alot of speeches from all around the world from his best frens to some influential icon in the world .. it was indeed touching and heartfelt .. But whut for me is the most touching part is the heartfelt performance from Stevie Wonder ..

At some point of time, i wonder .. When he was alive,they are alot of speculation about him .. i mean bad and image wrecking things about him .. and when he is gone .. everyone starts to appreciate him for who he is .. Suddenly he is everyone's idol .. Must everyone know how to appreciate only when someone is gone and speculate bad things n believe the speculation and blame everything on him when he is still alive? whats the point if one do not kno how appreciate things when its ere and only cry when its gone?

This man open the eyes of the world .. he do not believe in impossible .. he believe dat it can be done .. he believe in himself seeing dat he can change whut he believe in through his songs and all the humanity works that he had done .. Despite every negative speculation about him when he is alive .. he is indeed inspiring by who he is as a human n the vision that he has to have this world a better place ..

He is the role model of the black community .. he believe in there is no black nor white .. he believe in equality .. that everyone is the same .. he is a down to earth guy that has a lot of love in him and a caring heart to reach out to other ppl .. Pay attention to all the lyrics in his songs and you shall know how big is his heart and his vision to the world .. Michael, you are the inspiration to me and to the world .. Your legacy will live on and you will always b remembered ..

I will miss you and you will be forever in my heart .. i salute you .. Rest in Peace .. and GoodBye Michael ..

~ hAnAzEn ~

2009-07-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hanazen .. a Japanese restaurant in Jaya One, Petaling Jaya ..

Suddenly ... i feel addicted to the food served there .. been there once celebrating Eva's bday .. had chicken teppanyaki dat day.. GOsh .. the food there is delicious .. and their fruit platter .. its so creative and nice .. Ppl who kno me knew that i dont really have any good impression on Japanese food .. but this really opens up my mind and change my thought about Japanese food .. Even though i still had not breakthru in eating japanese RAW food which is everyone's favourite .. but ill take my time slowly and expeerience it .. wahhhaha!Well, everything got its first time rite .. haha!

Will definitely visit there anytime soon to try out new dish .. oh ya ... n of coz bringing my daddy n family there coz he love Japanese food too .. n im sure he will like it ..

fulfilling day at work ..

2009-07-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

Had my plan to take over my dad's business in 3 years time .. today is the first day that i handle the nite distribution all by myself after observing how my colleague work before taking over .. it was a very new experience for me .. to deal n expose to the outside world ..

Before today .. i feel very anxious and couldnt wait for today to come .. feel excited tho .. mayb this is a new thing for me .. n i kno i can learn alot from this .. =)

Was abit nervous when i reach to the distribution centre today .. but everything went well n smooth today .. n im so happy after handling everything .. guess it is a good start for me .. i jus feel very fulfilling and satisfied ..

I know the road in front there will b alot ups and downs .. but as for now .. i jus couldnt wait to go thru it .. coz i kno as i go along walking down the road i will grow and i will learn .. feel excited that the new phase of me to explore .. =)

You dont bring me flowers ...

2009-06-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

Was listening to songs and i came over a song that was once my old time favourites .. a song that ive not been listening for awhile .. came across it while playing my cd and i feel this song .. bring back all the memories dat i have during the time when this song is my favourite of all .. i thank you everyone who came into my life .. being there for me thru good and bad times .. never forget each other although we dont keep in touch always .. you guys will always be in my heart .. would like to share this wid you ...

YOU DONT BRING ME FLOWERS .... BARBARA STREISAND AND NEIL DIAMOND

You don't bring me flowers
You don't sing me love songs
You hardly talk to me anymore
When you come thru the door
At the end of the day

I remember when
You couldn't wait to love me
Used to hate to leave me
Now after lovin' me late at night
When it's good for you
And you're feelin' alright
Well you just roll over
And turn out the light
And you don't bring me flowers anymore

It used to be so natural
To talk about forever
But "used to be's" don't count anymore
They just lay on the floor
'til we sweep them away

And baby, I remember
All the things you taught me
I learned how to laugh
And I learned how to cry
Well I leared how to love
Even learned how to lie
You'd think I could learn
How to tell you goodbye
'cause you don't bring me flowers anymore

Lesson 1 - be who you are .. you are who you are ..

2009-06-25T15:09:00.000+08:00

" Some people will like me and some won't.So I might as well be myself, and then at least I'll know that the people,who like me, like me .. " ~ Hugh Prather ~

Starting next month i would be handling a division in my company .. its a big challenge to me as i never been given such big responsiblities and facing up to the real world..daddy teach me a valueable lesson today and this is the first lesson before me starting to deal wid the real world ..

ive always been miserable on what and who am i going to potray in handling things .. what would i need to do and how can i do it and handle it perfectly such dat everyone would b satisfy .. Daddy said .. you must kno who you are .. be who you are .. u dont need to pretend to be who you r not .. you live in the world that u r responsible to yourself .. no matter what action o decision dat you do, they are ppl who say its good and there are ppl who say its bad .. but you must be clear on urself whether o not whut is ur own principle .. the ONLY one person that u must answer to is YOURSELF .. not other ppl ..

im always blessed dat ive had my daddy to teach me alot of things and be there for me .. Thank you for the first lesson from you in preparing me to the challenge well ahead and i know dat i can handle it and create results out of it .. Thank you for having da faith in me and becoz of you im ready for it !! Love you daddy ..

at this point of time ..

2009-06-16T14:20:00.000+08:00

went out this morning wid daddy to have my car fix and serviced .. alot of problem occured since my car is already 5 years old ..Problem always come after this 5 years .. went there told the mechanic whut the list of the prob n we went off .. later rceived a call from the mechanic n he told us there is another thing which is spoiled n need replacement and that itself cost not little money .. ive come to realize to maintain a car is never easy and really got to think deeply when wanna buy a car coz down the road its all about the MONEY to maintain it ..

Daddy went for a blood test about a week ago and was waiting for da report to b out .. ive called the clinic today to check on the results and she said she will called me back .. Later in the afternoon i received a call from the clinic n she told me the outcome of the test wasnt really good .. Daddy is sick .. Now he got to have an appointment some where this week to see what can be done ..

ive no idea how to calm n care for my daddy now as i myself is not in a calm mood to have him not worry and make him happy .. how would i wan to make him happy when i myself is not stable .. after receiving the call im out of word to talk to my dad but jus ask him how is it .. is it serious .. n later on jus manage to comfort him by telling him .. dont worry it will be okay .. ive no idea how serious it would be .. but im scared . im scared if something happens to him .. the mood when down after da phone call .. now jus wwait for the clinic to calls back for appointment ..

i hope everything will be okay ..

my new hairdo ..

2009-06-10T15:56:00.000+08:00

went to The Curve to have my haircut on Sunday .. n i came out wid this .. will be going to a hair photoshoot by my hairstylist .. this is the shortest so far and its dyed wid copper colour .. quite funky coz my side's is all shaved up .. this is the front view.. the copper colour is obvious under the sun .. so satisfied wid my new hairdo .. thanks seth!!

this is the back view .. last time was 'V' shaped but this look more like 'U' shaped ..

can you see the shaved up part ? hehe .. its different both sides eventhough both is shaved up .. yeng!! hehe ..

this is the one on the left side .. the frinch covered the shaved up part . pretty cool hairdo .. i love it .. =)

final exam results ..

2009-06-10T14:01:00.000+08:00

wah .. jus seconds ago i checked my final exam result .. and i am superly happy in what ive got .. for this final semester .. i got 2A's and 3B's ... and im graduating with 2nd class higher for bachelor in lingustic malay .. im so overwhelmed by the results .. for those who know my 'thing' dat im facing thru in my uni and my CGPA, knew how important for me to get 3.00 and above and this final exam is my last point to get it and I GOT IT!!! .. I keep screaming inside my office and my mum ask me to belanja her eat since i got such a good results .. oh my god!! whut ive done really paid off .. and i didnt let down on myself .. im still in the overwhelmed and happy happy mood now .. it really make my day .. (before dat im still feels so busy and frustrated over work) ..

nothin is impossible and dont give up till the last point because u never know wat awaits u in the end of the road .. i love today n i certainly love UPM!! HAHaha .. see me in my convocation and graduation day !! Muackzzz .. happy day to all .. =)

07/06/2009 ...

2009-06-08T10:12:00.000+08:00

taking some time off work to blog while having my breakfast now .. hehe! not snaking around .. wanted to blog for some times but couldnt find the time as ive been out since friday ..

before starting to write this blog i have lots of mixed feeling .. but now dat i started i feel more calm .. probably im tired .. not enuf sleep .. tired of everything dat happened recently .. now as im writing this blog i feel abit of released, letting go,who is right who is wrong does seem to b important anymore .. on this date 07/06/2009 .. its been a rollercoaster day for me .. had done lots of things including my new hair do .. i got a funky hair do now .. like it very much.. early morning went to Klang n had Bak Kut Teh wid my dad n bro as my mum not joinin coz she is vegetarian dat day ..

later on went to sg wang to pick up clothes then off to Mid v to change the camera's memory card then off again the The Curve ..thinking back .. its amazing .. 3 shopping centre in 3 hours .. haha!but as i was doing whut i was doing .. my feeling is riding a rollercoaster too .. guess we r all human . we do have our 'day' .. hehe!

Later at nite went to Souled out for dinner wid frenz .. i was dared to do something n guess that was it .. the answer to everything?the solution for everything?the final straw?mayb it is .. not sure bout the intention of the daring , mayb something dat he wants?

wake up this morning feeling uneasy and not good .. but i told myself .. its time to move on .. wouldnt say it was the easiest thing to do .. but will take time to overcome it such dat it wont affect me ..

so .. finish up my breakfast edi and time to start working again .. =) yeah!! so .. will be uploading my funky new hair do and the trip to putrajaya soon .. =) have a brand new start and happy everyone .. so am i .. =)

sunny saturday at Putrajaya ..

2009-06-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

jus back from one day trip to Putrajaya with my family and aunt .. brought them touring almost the whole Putrajaya today .. wow gosh its so hot and the sun is burning my skin .. took alot of photos and will be uploading it soon .. =) had a crabby dinner at Kuchai Lama before coming back .. and now im going off again to Raymond's house to chill and have some Jack Daniel .. probably that the thing that i needed the most rite now .. jus wanna fill my day wid activities and friends .. dont wanna think of anything .. cheers . hope everyone had a great saturday .. will be blogging soon .. off i go to ray's house ....

gAtHeRiNg oF cLaSs 5K2 .. sRi gARdeN - ians .. =)

2009-05-29T12:39:00.000+08:00

its been a long time that i didnt meet up with my high skool frenz .. the last time was wid Penny. my best fren , to Pavillion and it was last year .. my god!! how time flies .. yesterday we went out for yum cha-ing session at Cafe Quan at Pandan Indah .. Penny, ChiA Ying , Kar Weng , Chun Lek n gf , Edmund, n nevertheless my bf was there tooo ..

after been so long never see them, Chun lek surprisingly still look the same like last time .. no change at all .. the hair is still so shiny n nice .. haha! n we talk about the names we gave each other during out hi skool time .. burst out loud man .. turtle and shorty was the name for chun lek .. and mine ? hahah! fantastic name .. u wouldnt have guessed it .. haha! Roberto Carlos .. can you believe it? i wonder how i got such name .. there is always a story behind every names .. haha! He is still as funny as ever ..

of coz .. we girls which is me, Penny and Chia Ying had our gal talk n the guys had ther guys talk .. We girls as usual talk about guys, who got married , gossip .. haha and my bf was there absorbing and learning whut gurls usually will talk during the gal's talk .. Funny .. bet he had lots of fun listening to whut we gossip yesterday nite .. haahah!

Wow! after chattin with them i felt that im so outdated .. we were like exchanging news to each other .. haha! definitely will have another session of yum cha o sing k .. still got lots to catch up .. ! so happy to see them .. =)

25 th wEdDiNg aNniVeRsArY ...

2009-05-28T14:41:00.000+08:00

dATE : 26 MaY 2009

Wow!!! A memorable day for both of my parents .. They've been married for 25 years ! thats amazin .. tHis is by far a huge celebration for my family .. it is neva easy to maintain a relationship and they have prove it all wrong .. SALUTE!! .. dADDY has asked me to prepare for this anniversary way before the date .. he demanded dat he want a simple yet grand and unforgettable celebration .. At first, i think until my head wanna burst . ' how can u have a simple celebration and u want it to b grand ? '..simple and grand is like 2 different story .. its been bugging me for a week and i felt funny bout the statement that my daddy had made .. haha!

i was also been thinking about the gift that daddy wanna give to Mom .. its not hard to think of whut to give to mummy but finding ppl who actually know how to make it , its challenging .. guess whut in my mind of the present from my dad for my mum .. see the pic below and guess whether u kno whut it made of ? =)

is it nice? its actually made of rm10 notes .. it need 3 pieces of 10 dollar note to form a rosey .. ive been searching everywhere to find for ppl who know how to made this and thanks to Chi yan's info, i found it!! ehehe! and my present for both my mom and dad is ..

its kinda a last minute thingy though .. =( i had to do it secretly without my parent knew about it ..hahah! went to Ikea the day be4 wid my bf and buy all the stuffs, had the photo developed and we made it together .. phheww! luckily it came out nice .. =)

this is all my cousin brother and sisters .. ive no idea why they all aim to punch me .. ahah!its like a gathering to us and we had real fun during the dinner .. getting crazy together , singing karaoke , making jokes .. ! nice .. !

happy 25 th wEDdiNg aNniverSaRy ..

later that nite .. its the climax of the nite .. the arrival of the customized jelly cake jus for my mum and dad .. been in the cake shop for hour to have the best been selected .. i find it real cute .. even the waiters there was complimenting on it .. see it for urself .. =)

the last photo that we had that nite .. 'GROUP PHOTO' .. hhaha! with all my auntie , uncles , cousin brother and sisters .. we had a crazy shot all together .. !! definitely a nite where my dad say simple yet grand .. yeah!! i made it and fufilled it! feel so proud and happy in making this celebration a successs !! most importantly mom and dad is happy and everyone enjoyed themselves at the dinner .. =)

here are some pictures taken dat nite .. =) fabulous nite we had .. =)

' YUM SENG'

Kl -- sEreMbAn -- pD -- sEreMbAn -- kL ...

2009-05-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

daTE : 23 May 2009

its a sudden decision to go on a one day trip to Seremban .. 10am waiting for da lovely couple (ray+jo) at Sg besi high way and off we go to Serembannnn .. its really a EAT ! EAT ! EAT ! trip coz on our way down we say we gonna eat the whole Seremban up .. haha! and very well , we DID .. we had beef nudle , laksa , hakka mee , cendol all one shot !!

this is uncle Raymond enjoying is Hakka Mee .. look at his face .. jus like he wanna eat it up all one shot .. its seriously very nice and delicious Hakka Mee in Seremban .. compliment to my boyfren for bringing us there for a nice lunchie .. =)

this is how they made the cendol .. normally now in Kl n everywhere they will use machine edi to cut da ice .. classic .. i was asking da indian uncle for permission to take his photo .. ahhah! nice bowl of cool n refreshing cendol for a sunny hot day ..

Went to Port Dickson for a few hours .. its freaking hot there .. walk on the sand its like ppl walking burning charcoal .. haha .. manage to buy myself a kite and cute cute strawberry and play there .. =)

Look at our faces and smile and you know we definitely had a great time at Seremban and PD .. At nite , we meet up with young man Choo choo and Choo at mamak for a drink . it feels so great to see and chat wit them after so long we've not seen each other .. Do always take care and stay young yah .. will definitely have another round of yam cha in Seremban .. im missing the beef nudle ediiii ..

crossroads ...

2009-05-24T21:02:00.001+08:00

today is Sunday .. A day where i normally will spend my time with my family.. After spending the day with them, here am i right here right now in front of the comp blogging about whatever dat ive come to realized today ..

Im blessed as always whenever n whatever i am unconscious there is always someone who will in a way tell me or let me see something that i cant see for now .. i remembered when i wanted to finish my study i told myself i will focus in my career and make something happen out of it . and thats my goal .. i never thought of being in a relationship at dat time as i was clear that i wanted to focus on my career and be success before starting anything else.. But i end up being in one now ..

I am a fresh graduate and i started everything from new n fresh.. i do not blame by me having relationship dat made me not 100% committed in my work.. Having said that,i wanted to be focus and committed in my work as well as making my relationship work .. the goal in my career is whut i want to strive for before and now,and love is a bonus that came along which i glad it did ..

Being in a relationship is easy but building a future together is a challenge .. but it is not impossible at all .. love isnt about sweet talks, going out ,watching movie , and argue over tiny matters .. love is about will i do this for the one that i love .. how far will i go for the one that i love? love is about two ppl building up a home together , a future together .. how would i want my future wid my bf o future husband to be? will i go all out to have my financial be stable that im able to support my family ? giving the best to them .. am i doing anything now that will contribute to my future wid my loved ones .. love is half fantasy and half realistic ..it needs 2 ppl going 100% each to have it work and build the future together in fantasy and realistic way.. there is balance in love ..

today, ive been struggling whether or not is it possible to have both (work+relationship) work out well o shud i give up something to have the other thing o mayb i will b too busy working and neglect my relationship or the other way round .. Later ive come to realize that i can have both of it at the same time .. finding a way to balance it is the KEY ..

blurrish vision ..

2009-05-19T15:23:00.000+08:00

its been one week ever since my eyes started to pain .. started with left eye end up wid right eye now .. its been one week dat im not in front of the comp .. ppl who know me knows what happened to my eyes .. long story to put it ere .. even now when i was writing this my eyes cant see 50% of it .. rating out of 10 .. my blurness is 5 .. both eyes is very blur .. at some point i was so scared dat i was goin to blind.. i wonder what will it be if thats happened? when i thought of dat, i began to appreciate everything around me .. the faces that i have seen almost everyday .. faces dat ive long time no see .. faces that i wish to see .. i hope to see it be4 one day it really happens .. suddenly got the feeling of taking pictures of everyone to keep it in my memory .. at one point of time ive no idea how long would i b able to see .. Well maybe its a good thing that this happen to me dat i start to appreciate whut i sees and feels gratitude about it ..

since last week ive been struggling to open my eyes when i wake up every morning .. cant seem to have any lights to go thru my eyes .. wearing sunglasses almost 24/7, to everywhere i go .. like some kind of celebrity that doesnt want to b recognized .. haha! doctor advised me to go for laser .. was considering about it now .. but he say it will last for 5-6 years depending on how fast my eye 'gel' produced .. i was thinking if i had been lucky enuf to live up till 70 yrs old,which means i got to go thru laser for 10 times? will it have side effect then?

i cant see things clearly , ive not been working for one week , i need to put the paper right up to my eyes to see whut it writes .. i cant watch tv,read books even play computer .. it does frustrates me .. its been one week long dat ive nt been really productive .. basically doing nothing at all .. jus sleep sleep sleep n sleep .. feels shitty actually .. not being productive at all .. but i got to take care of my precious eyes .. =) to make sure that i can see everything beautiful things in this world . every faces that is important n meant so much to me whether its my frens, family , buddy o even stangers on the street ..

i often wonders now and then how the blind ppl does inspires me .. come to think about it .. we r so lucky to have everything in one piece .. if they can fight for their live n their fate eventhough they cant see the world, did we who born nothing less than perfect does the same and appreciate everythin that we have ? i wonder .... if not , y not?

jynnie tan ?

2009-05-11T20:47:00.000+08:00

Was watching Biggest Loser jus now and tears keep rolling down my cheeks .. Not really sure why am i crying .. but today definitely not a very good day for me .. whole day i was basically going thru the day only .. my mood wasnt that good dat somehow my dad realized it .. felt bad though .. today i dont feel like thinking anything .. i didnt even feel like going out from the house .. jus wanna b at home .. n all by myself .. today becoz of my mood, da world around me turns to b gray .. sometimes i thinks too much and sometimes i dont .. but when is the time dat i need to think n when is the time that i jus follow my heart? tell me what is real and what is fake? how do i feel dat?it seems like i lost it .. i really lost it .. am i stupid o am i jus do not know how to feel?im really very scared ..

My eyes is really pain now and i need to rest myself from the comp ... I wish tomolow will be a great day for me and definitely its a brand new day ..

the moment of NOW ...

2009-04-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

Today,will be the first day dat i feel like writing a blog .. eversince registring a blog,i was wondering what to write,when will i have the urge o need to write a blog .. but today and now,i jus feel to have a little time for me to be in this spot,lying on my bed,typing these words on whatever dat ive discovered and gone thru today..

It wasnt a pleasant day for me today if i cud put it this way..My mind was everywhere but definitely not in the moment and definitely not present.something bothering me badly and i know i got to get it out..and BOOM!

Later in the evening,my boyfren took me to a food court for dinner before going to badminton.. A classic foodcourt i wud say..i was actually feel abit wasted because i didnt bring a camera to capture da place .. We choose a place in front of the stall and sat down..I wasnt talking much then..After we ordered our food,we were silent.Everything started when our dinner is served ....

I bring back myself to me .. to be in the moment .. NOW ... The first spoon of mee that i took,its feels like i never had such a delicious fishball mee before..Just by being there n then really enjoying whutever im doin n eating.. it seems so different .. it FEELS so different..I started looking around .. My heart fills with appreciation and my eyes fills with tears .. The first thing that came to my view .. its the uncle who manage the mee stall .. he is around 60+ ..and yet he still doing business wid passion n dat inspires me .. i was looking all around and i saw a few ppl sitting and eating,talking n doing their own stuff .. and i saw a guy,a guy with his leg disability..using a tool to support him..i do not know why but i do feel his pain..from him i see how he never gave up his life and be strong to go on..something strange..i feel so connected to them .. i feel so NOW ..Thanks for bringing me there dear ..

After a long day and a hot bath.. now n here im lying on the bed,writing this blog,reviewing whut had happen today,whutever dat i feel today,whutever dat i say today ...i came to realize it doesnt matter who is rite who is wrong,it doesnt matter who win o who lose,it doesnt matter about ego o not,it doesnt matter who took the first step,it doesnt matter whut will happen in the future .. because whut i have is now .. and whut matters is if we ever had different points of view in life,can we work it out together and b align?

kEtIka dAn kALIMat ..

2009-04-09T20:24:00.000+08:00

Bbm 3410 Bahasa dalam Multimedia merupakan salah satu subjek yang telah saya daftar untuk semester ke-6 iaitu semester terakhir saya di Upm sebelum bergraduat mendapatkan Ijazah Bacelor saya.Seperti biasa saya tidak akan hadir ke kelas pada minggu pertama universiti dibuka.Apa yang saya paling ingat sepanjang perjalanan saya di dalam kelas ini ialah minggu ke-2 apabila saya masuk ke dalam kelas.Pada masa itu,saya telah lewat sebanyak 10 minit.Waktu untuk kelas Multimedia ialah pada pukul 12.00 hingga 2.00pm.Sebelum kelas Multimedia.kelas saya yang sebelumnya ialah di Fakulti Ekonomi sehingga pukul 12.Apabila saya masuk ke dalam kelas, tiba-tiba saya disuruh berhenti dan berdiri di depan kelas oleh guru Multimedia saya iaitu Dr Normaliza.Saya berasa amat terperanjat kerana sebelum ini tidak ada seorang lecturer yang berbuat demikian walau sesiapa datang selewat manapun.Saya memang tidak tahu apa kesalahan saya pada masa itu dan dia mula bertanya kenapa lambat? Saya cuba untuk menjelaskan tetapi tidak dilayan.Dalam hati saya tertanya-tanya,kenapa lecturer ini macam ini,tidak mendengar penjelasan saya.Biasanya pada sesiapa yang tidak memahami akan merasakan bahawa lecturer ini amat tegas dan jahat.Tapi saya tidak pernah berfikir demikian.Apabila saya dibenarkan ke tempat duduk, saya berjanji dengan diri saya sendiri bahawa saya tidak akan lewat ke kuliah ini lagi.Oleh itu,saya telah berunding dengan lecturer saya di Fakulti Ekonomi saya akan meninggalkan kelas lebih awal pada pukul 11.40am untuk pergi ke kelas Multimedia supaya saya tidak akan lewat lagi.

Saya masih ingat Dr sering kata kumpulan mana yang tidak cukup orang dia akan berikan markah 0 kepada kumpulan itu.Dan Dr pernah cakap kepada saya .. siapa dalam ahli kumpulan kamu?Kesiannya mereka lalu bercakap dengan ahli kumpulan saya,Kalau tak nak dapat markah 0 baik buang saya.Masa mula-mula kuliah saya selalu berasakan kenapa lecturer ini begitu.Saya memang tidak faham akan tindakan dan apa yang dicakapkan oleh Dr.Saya tidak berapa ingat dengan jelas aktiviti-aktiviti yang dilakukan mengikut urutan.Tetapi saya ingat dalam satu aktiviti kami dikehendaki untuk membuat papan iklan atau muka surat depan majalah menggunakan asas grafik iaitu kesesuaian,keseimbangan,mudah,warna dan teks.Kami dikehendaki untuk menyediakan kadboard yang keras dan membawa majalah-majalah untuk digunakan untuk tugasan tersebut.Arahan Dr kepada kami ialah dia mahu kad board itu dalam keadaan yang sempurna ,langsung tidak boleh ada kotor dan segalanya mesti diukur dengan tepat dan masa diberikan.Jika kita tidak hantar pada masa yang ditetapkan,markah 0 akan diberikan.Jadi kami pun mula membuat tugasan tersebut di dalam kelas itu.Mula-mulanya,suasana agak kecoh dan kami membuat kerja dengan sambil lewa sahaja.Akan tetapi apabila masa dah nak sampai untuk menghantar tugasan dan memandangkan kami cuma telah menyiapkan separuh daripada tugasan tersebut,kami mula resah .Lalu kami pun bergegas untuk menyiapkan tugasan itu untuk dihantar pada masa yang ditetapkan.Nasib baik sempat juga kami menyiapkannya dan menghantarnya ke bilik Dr.

Dalam suatu kuliah,kami diberi tugasan untuk membuat karangan yang panjangnya 8 halaman.Kalau tidak silap ingatan saya,kali terakhir saya membuat karangan adalah masa saya tingkatan 6.Dah lama tidak menyentuh dan langsung telahpun lupa bagaimana rangka karangan dan aturannya.Seperti biasa,kami dikehendaki membuat karangan tersebut dalam kumpulan dan diberi masa sebanyak 1jam untuk menyiapkan karangan tersebut.Akan tetapi,sebelum kami dibenarkan untuk menulis karangan tersebut,kami dikehendaki untuk membuat peta minda ataupun rangka karangan untuk diluluskan oleh Dr.Dengan permintaan Dr yang amat tinggi dan boleh dikatakan mencapai tahap sempurna,peta minda kami ditolak beberapa kali dan disuruh untuk membuat pembetulan.Setelah beberapa kali membuat pembetulan akhirnya peta minda kami diluluskan dan kami berasa amat gembira.Tibalah masanya untuk menulis karangan dan kami saling melihat antara satu sama lain kerana kami telah lama tidak menulis karangan dan untuk memulakan perenggan pertama untuk karangan itu amatlah payah sekali.Tetapi masa tidak mengizinkan lalu kami pun mulalah menulis apa-apa yang terlintas di dalam fikiran kami.Setelah siap karangan kami sebanyak 8 halaman,kami pun menghantar tugasan kami melalui e-mel kepada Dr.Apa yang dipelajari dalam tugasan ini?Tentulah kemahiran menulis karangan yang telah lama dilupakan.

Pada satu minggu,saya tidak dapat hadir ke kuliah Dr,saya pergi mencari Dr di biliknya untuk memberitahu Dr bahawa saya tidak dapat hadir
ke kelas tetapi Dr tidak berada di biliknya tetapi berada di bilik sebelah.Apabila Dr nampak saya,dia menegur saya dan saya berasa amat gembira kerana saya sememangnya sedang mencari Dr.Apabila saya memberitahunya bahawa saya tidak dapat ke kelas pada hari Rabu,reaksi Dr ialah kenapa awak tidak boleh datang?Kenapa peperiksaan mesti dijalankan pada masa itu?Tidakkan mereka tahu awak ada kelas? Saya menjelaskan situasi saya dan Dr menyuruh saya datang selepas sebaik sahaja peperiksaan itu habis.Masa itu,saya dapat merasai sikap Dr yang tidak ditunjukkan di dalam kuliah.Pada masa itu,saya merasakan dia amat mengambil berat tentang pelajarnya dan tidak mahu pelajarnya ketinggalan kuliah.Tidak tahu mengapa,walau Dr sebagaimana garang ataupun tegas,tetapi saya selalu dapat merasakan yang sebaliknya.Apa yang ditunjukkan garang dan tegas tetapi sebaliknya ialah sikap ambil berat dan bersungguh-sungguh mahu kita sebagai pelajar untuk mempelajari sesuatu baik pelajaran ataupun dalam hidup kita.Sebaliknya,saya berasa Dr sememangnya amat menyayangi pelajarnya.Tidak tahu mengapa,tetapi perasaan saya memang merasakan begitu.

Aktiviti yang entah ke berapa adalah untuk membuat majalah.Boleh dikatakan semua aktiviti yang dijalankan dalam kelas itu saya memang amat menikmatinya.Selain dapat mempelajari sesuatu daripada aktiviti yang dijalankan,ia juga dapat memupuk semangat berpasukan.Dengan aktiviti yang dijalankan,tidak disangka hubungan antara kawan bertambah erat.Mungkin kerana saya seorang sahaja yang berbangsa Cina di dalam kelas,saya tidak mempunyai ramai kawan.Masa mula-mula masuk ke kelas,saya Cuma berkenalan dengan 2 orang rakan sahaja.Tetapi sehingga kini,saya amat berbangga kerana saya telah dapat berkenalan hampir separuh daripada kelas.Dan dalam kumpulan kami dapat berbincang dan membuat sesuatu dalam kumpulan.Saya dapat merasakan kami semua berasa amat gembira membuat aktiviti dalam kumpulan dan tidak disangka hubungan kami bertambah erat.

Dalam aktiviti itu,kami saling bantu membantu kerana ada di kalangan kawan saya yang tidak tahu melukis . Malah dalam kumpulan saya terdapat seorang lelaki yang amat boleh dikatakan lucu dan sering di marah oleh Dr.Rasanya Dr pun tahu siapa.Terkenang balik,saya berasa amat bertuah berada dalam kumpulan saya ini .Kerananya adanya Syam,kumpulan kami menjadi amat terkenal kerana sering dimarah oleh Dr.Kebanyakan masa yang menjadi puncanya ialah dia.Dia merupakan seorang yang amat lucu malah kadang kala ahli kumpulan kami tidak boleh tahan dengan dia.Selalunya kami cuba untuk menghalang dia daripada bercakap dan dimarahi tetapi selalunya dia kena marah dengan Dr.Tetapi dengan adanya dia di dalam kumpulan kami,kumpulan kami menjadi amat meriah kerana kelakuannya yang amat lucu dan segala lawak yang keluar dari mulutnya.Seperti biasa kami tidak dapat menyiapkan aktiviti tersebut pada masa yang ditetapkan,jadi saya berlari ke bilik Dr untuk berunding dengan Dr supaya memberikan masa yang lebih
kepada kami.Tetapi Dr cakap TIDAK BOLEH . Orang lain boleh hantar pada
masa yang ditetapkan kenapa awak tak boleh? Jadi saya pun bergegas balik ke kumpulan saya dan cepat cepat menyiapkannya.Lepas itu,cepat cepat hantar ke bilik Dr.Nasib baik masih sempat kerana selepas menerima kerja kumpulan kami,Dr telah mengunci pintu biliknya.Kasihan kepada kumpulan yang lebih lambat daripada kami.

Selain itu,aktiviti lain yang paling mencabar ialah membuat billboard.Dr menjelaskan kepada kami apa itu billboard dan contoh yang diambil oleh Dr ialah billboard Volkswagen.Selepas itu,kami diberi tugasan untuk membuat billboard mengikut sequence.Saya masih ingat setiap ahli kumpulan dikehendaki untuk melukis.Rakan-rakan saya semua merungut kerana ada sesetengah antara mereka tidak tahu melukis.Tetapi saya berasa amat gembira dalam membuat tugasan ini.Melalui banyak banyak aktiviti yang dijalankan.ia dapat merangsangkan otak saya berfikir secara kreatif dan membuat sesuatu yang biasanya tidak dilakukan di dalam kelas.Saya merasakan sepanjang dalam kuliah ini,apa yang dilakukan sememangnya amat
berbeza daripada apa-apa kulaih yang pernah saya hadir dalam UPM.Pendekatannya amat berbeza dan saya amat berminat dalam kuliah ini.Seperti biasa kami diberikan masa untuk menyiapkan tugasan ini.Pertama,kami akan menyediakan papan cerita untuk diluluskan oleh Dr sebelum kami melakarlkannya dalam kertas A4 yang telah disediakan oleh Dr.Selepas diluluskan oleh Dr,kami pun mula untuk melukis dalam kertas A4.Selepas habis kami pun menghantar hasil lukisan kami kepada Dr.Mana tahu hampir separuh daripada lukisan ‘direject’ oleh Dr.Apa yang paling lucu bagi saya ialah Dr mengatakan lukisan Eiffel Tower langsung tidak merupai Eiffel Tower .Entah apa lukisan ini dan kami dikehendaki untuk melukis dan mengubah separuh daripada lukisan kami.Jadi kami pun bergegas ke latar Siswa untuk menyiapkan tugasan kami.Dalam menyiapkan tugasan itu,kami amat menikmatinya.

Pada minggu ke-3,kami dikehendaki untuk membawa kamera digital ke kuliah.Selepas itu kami diberi tugasan untuk hari itu iaitu untuk menangkap gambar seberapa banyak yang boleh.Latar belakang gambar hendaklah berbeza yang menunjukkan unsur Multimedia.Di samping itu,setiap orang ahli mesti berada dalam gambar tersebut.Kalau seorang tiada dalam gambar tersebut,maka kumpulan tersebut akan mendapat 0 lagi.Kami diberi masa 1 jam setengah untuk membuat tugasan tersebut.Selepas itu kami dikehendaki untuk membuat video yang memaparkan gambar yang diambil dengan simpulan bahasa yang sesuai dan panjang video itu adalah selama sekurang-kurangnya 3 minit.Sebelum kami dibenarkan keluar untuk membuat tugasan,kumpulan kami telah dipanggil ke hadapan kelas untuk membuat illustrasi kepada semua.Apabila kami membuat wajah tertawa,seluruh kelas turut ketawa bersama kerana wajah yang kami buat amat lucu.Tanpa melengahkan masa lagi,kami sekumpulan pun keluar dari bilik kuliah dan pergi mengambil gambar.

Tempat pertama yang kami pergi ialah tangga di sebelah bilik-bilik pensyarah.Kami pun duduk di atas tangga dan ada seorang rakan saya yang berpura-pura jatuh dari tangga.Boleh dikatakan aktiviti ini amat menarik.Lepas itu,kami pun menyuruh Syam untuk memanjat pokok.Boleh dikatakan sepanjang kami membuat tugasan ini amat banyak drama .Sekejap ini tak boleh sekejap itu tak boleh.Seperti biasa Syam membuat muka machonya dan mula memanjat pokok dan kami menangkap gambarnya semasa dia berada di atas pokok.Adegan yang paling saya ingat ialah gambar kena langgar kereta.Syam dikehendaki untuk berbaring di atas jalanraya dan berpura-pura dilanggar kereta.Dia memasukkan kakinya ke dalam kereta dan membuat muka kena langgar.Kami ketawa terbahak-bahak dan ketika itu Dr berada di sekitar ternampak dan dia pun ketawa melihat karenah kami.Gambar yang kami ambil penuh dengan kreativiti dan imaginasi yang baik.

Terdapat 2 minggu kelas Multimedia yang diambil alih oleh Dr Arba’ie.Pada masa itu,saya tertanya-tanya di mana Dr.Dalam kelas Dr Arba’ie kami didedahkan kepada cara-cara untuk menghasilkan papan cerita.Dan tidak lari daripada tugasan,kami diberikan tugasan untuk menghasilkan papan cerita berdasarkan cerita yang diberikan oleh Dr.Tajuk papan cerita itu adalah berkaitan dengan Tsunami.Dr Arba’ie merupakan seorang yang amat tegas dan berpegang teguh kepada prinsip.Pernah dia menyuruh seorang rakan kami keluar dari kelas kerana dia merasakan rakan saya itu tidak mendengar cakap dan tidak menghormati kelasnya itu.Walaubagaimanapun,daripada dia saya dapat mempelajari sesuatu dan apa yang hendak disampaikan olehnya di dalam pembelajaran.Dr Arba’ie juga menunjukkan video mengenai bagaimana untuk menghasilkan papan cerita dan mengajar kita bagaimana untuk menghasilkan papan cerita yang baik dan menarik.Oleh kerana 2 minggu kelas telah diganti oleh Dr Arba’ie,maka sesetengah rakan dari kelas telah mula masuk lewat.Namun begitu,pada minggu seterusnya,bukan Dr Arba’ie yang berada di dalam kelas tetapi ialah Dr Normaliza,jadi kenalah mereka.Mereka yang lambat dikehendaki untuk membuat sebaris pantun.Sesuatu yang agak luar biasa.

Ada beberapa kuliah yang kami cuma menyalin nota dan Dr mengajar melalui Powerpoint.Tetapi dari sana kami dilatih untuk menyalin nota dengan cepat kerana biasanya Dr tidak akan menunggu kami untuk siap menyalin untuk menukar halaman.Dr akan memberi penjelasan terhadap halaman itu dan terus menukar ke halaman yang lain.Siapa yang lambat nasiblah.Oleh itu ada rakan saya yang membawa kamera digital ke kelas untuk menangkap gambar Powerpoint tersebut.Boleh dikatakan lebih cepat dan efektif.Pada setiap penghujung Powerpoint,kami akan ditanyakan soalan berkaitan dengan apa yang baru dipelajari.Dr akan mengajukan soalan dan kami dikehendaki untuk menjawab di dalam kumpulan.Siapa cepat dia dapa.Bagi setiap soalan yang dijawab dengan betul,kumpulan tersebut akan
dikurniakan markah.Aktiviti ini amat seronok dan merangsang minda setiap orang dan dapat melatih saya untuk memberi tumpuan kepada setiap benda yang diajar.Melalui pertanyaan soalan,ia dapat membuat saya lebih memahami apa yang disampaikan melalui Dr dan Powerpoint.Kami selalu berebut-rebut untuk menjawab soalan sama ada kami tahu jawapan ataupun tidak.Satu hari yang amat seronok.Saya selalu berasa amat seronok menghadiri kuliah Multimedia ini.Kerana pada setiap kuliah merupakan sesuatu yang amat berbeza dan apa yang dipelajari adalah amat berbeza.Sungguh menarik.

Pada minggu ke-10,kami telah diberikan tugasan yang saya rasa amat bermakna.Tugasan ini merupakan tugasan yang dapat memupuk kasih sayang,bantu membantu dan menolong individu-individu yang kurang bernasib baik.Tugasan yang diberikan ialah untuk mencari sebuah rumah sama ada rumah anak yatim ataupun orang tua,kami dikehendaki untuk pergi ke rumah tersebut dan membuat aktiviti amal dan merekodkan segala yang
berlaku dan membuat video untuk ditayangkan di dalam kuliah pada minggu ke-12.Kumpulan kami Lestary akan bergabung dengan kumpulan Broadcaster telah memilih sebuah rumah anak yatim yang terletak di Puchong.Sebelum pergi ke rumah tersebut,kami dikehendaki untuk membuat proposal tentang aktiviti yang akan dijalankan pada hari tersebut dan berjumpa dengan Dr untuk mendapatkan persetujuannya.Kami telah merancang aktiviti seperti gotong-royong,kelas tutorial,sambutan hari jadi kanak-kanak di rumah tersebut dan acara sukaneka.Kami telah berjumpa dengan Dr beberapa kali untuk membuat proposal yang terbaik.Selain itu,kami juga telah berkumpul beberapa kali untuk berbincang tentang aktiviti;aktiviti yang akan dijalankan,memastikan semuanya akan berjalan dengan lancar.

Hari itu telahpun tiba.Kami berkumpul pada pukul 7 pagi dan bertolak ke Puchong menuju ke Rumah Limpahan Kasih.Kira-kira pada pukul 8.00 pagi kami sampai di rumah tersebut dan bertemu dengan penjaga rumah tersebut.Sebagai permulaan,kami membuat sesi pengenalan dengan kanak-kanak di rumah tersebut.Selepas berkenalan kami membahagikan mereka kepada beberapa kumpulan dan memulakan aktiviti kami yang pertama iaitu acara sukaneka.Ini merupakan pertama kali saya didedahkan kepada budaya masyarakat Melayu kerana kesemua kanak-kanak termasuk penjaga rumah tersebut merupakan orang Melayu.Sesampai di rumah tersebut,saya berasakan kanak-kanak di rumah tersebut amat sopan dan telah dididik dengan amat baik sekali.Suasana yang amat gembira dan rasanya seperti rumah sendiri.Berbalik kepada acara sukaneka,mereka dikehendaki untuk mereka sorakan untuk kumpulan mereka dan digunakan sepanjang masa.Sukaneka tersebut telah mengambil masa sebanyak 1 jam termasuk meniup belon,mencari gula-gula dalam tepung.Kanak-kanak tersebut kelihatan amat gembira dan menikmati sukaneka tersebut.Selepas itu,kanak-kanak tersebut diberi masa rehat bersertakan minuman dan roti yang telah disediakan oleh kami.

Selepas itu,acara kelas tutorial telah dijalankan.Kanak-kanak diberi sekeping kertas mahjong dan melukis masa depan atau harapan mereka.Aktiviti ini adalah untuk memupuk sikap positif dan yakin kepada diri mereka sendiri.Kami telah bersama dengan mereka dalam melukis dan memberi idea dalam aktiviti ini.Selepas itu,mereka dikehendaki untuk membentangkan apa yang dilukis berserta dengan maksudnya.Kumpulan yang membuat pembentangan yang terbaik akan diberi hadiah.Sebelum upacara sambutan hari jadi kami telah menjalankan upacara penyampaian hadiah untuk sukaneka yang dijalankan pagi itu.Selepas selesai penyampaian hadiah dan pemberian sumbangan ikhlas daripada kami kepada penjaga rumah tersebut,upacara sambutan harijadi dijalankan.Shuqrie dan miro telah menyanyikan lagu hari jadi dengan diiringi dengan gitar.Wah .. sungguh merdu suara Miro.

Pada hari itu.ada sesuatu yang tidak mungkin saya lupakan.Sebelum kami balik,seorang kanak-kanak telah mendekati saya dan bertanya kepada saya. ‘kak,kak nak pulang sekarang ke? Boleh tak tunggu sekejap,kami ini membuat persembahan untuk akak-akak sekalin..’ .Lalu saya memberitahu rakan-rakan saya yang lain.Tidak disangka mereka telah membuat persembahan nasyid kepada kami.Perasaan saya pada masa itu,saya tidak dapat luahkan dengan perkataan.Saya berasa amat terharu dan semakin saya rasa tidak sampai hati untuk meninggalkan mereka.Masa pada hari itu berlalu dengan amat cepat.Pada saat itu,saya berasa amat amat terharu dengan apa yang diberikan oleh mereka kepada saya.Walaupun Cuma persembahan nasyid tetapi saya berasa amat gembira dan saya dapat merasakan kasih sayang mereka kepada saya.Saya dalam diam akan berdoa dan berharapkan agar mereka semua akan membesar dengan cepat dan sihat dan mengejar impian mereka menjadi seorang yang berguna dan mencapai kebahagian.Ini merupakan harapan saya kepada mereka.Dan saya percaya mereka akan dapat mencapai impian mereka.

Hari itu tamat pada kira-kira pukul 6 petang.Saya bergegas balik ke rumah kerana saya akan pergi ke Seremban untuk Open house kawan saya.Sepanjang perjalanan saya dari KL ke Seremban,saya sayik terbayangkan wajah kanak-kanak di Rumah Limpahan Kasih.Masa itu,saya masih berasa amat bangga dengan kanak-kanak tersebut dan berasa amat gembira kerana saya telah menggunakan masa saya sehari untuk membuat sesuatu yang amat bermakna.Saya telah memberitahu dan berkongsi pengalaman saya kepada beberapa kawan baik saya.Saya berasa amat gembira sehingga saya tidak boleh simpan pengalaman itu kepada diri saya sendiri sahaja.Hari tersebut merupakan hari paling gembira dan saat yang tidak mungkin saya lupa sepanjang hidup saya.Sebelum ini,saya pernah berbuat kerja amal seperti ini,tetapi apa yang amat berbeza kali ini ialah saya membuat kerja amal dengan rakan seuniversiti saya.Pengalaman ini amat berbeza dan
menakjubkan.Seperti tidak boleh percaya,sememangnya amat gembira dan bertuah kerana dapat berbuat demikian dengan rakan-rakan saya.Saya berharap sekiranya individu-individu di masyarakat sedar akan kebaikan membuat kerja amal,dunia ini akan menjadi tempat yang penuh dengan kasih sayang dan saling bantu-membantu.

Selepas berkunjung ke rumah Limpahan Kasih,tugasan seterusnya ialah untuk menghasilkan video untuk pembentangan.Masa pembentangan,saya masih ingat Dr berkata mungkin ada orang yang tak ada perasaan pun semasa menonton video ini.Tetapi bagi saya,semasa menonton video ini saya dapat merasakan kasih sayang setiap individu dalam video tersebut dan ada beberapa ketika saya dapat merasakan air mata di kelopak mata saya.Sebelum akhir kuliah,Dr kata mungkin satu hari,sama ada di mana-mana tempat atau pada bila-bila masa,mungkin kami akan terkenang sejenak masa kita di rumah-rumah anak yatim tersebut.Apa yang telah kami buat dan semuanya akan terpahat di hati mereka dan kami.Saya percaya apa yang dikatakan oleh Dr.Kerana saya tahu pengalaman yang saya dapat di dalam tugasan ini akan terpahat di hati saya selamanya dan merupakan memori yang amat indah sepanjang hidup saya ini.

Dan pada minggu ke-13,Dr masuk ke kelas dan membuat pengumuman bahawa kelas tersebut merupakan kelas yang terakhir untuk kelas Multimedia dan tiada kelas pada minggu ke-14.Sepatutnya reaksi normal bagi setiap orang ialah gembira tetapi saya berlainan.Apabila Dr membuat pengumuman tersebut,saya berasa sedih kerana tanpa diketahui,kelas Multimedia ini telah sampai ke penghujungnya.Mungkin kerana saya menikmati setiap kuliah Multimedia dan tidak mahu ia berakhir.Pada masa itu,perasaan saya bercampur aduk.Dalam kelas Multimedia ini,selain daripada pengajaran daripada kuliah dan subjek,saya dapat mempelajari sesuatu yang tidak dapat dibeli dengan duit iaitu nilai kemanusiaan.Untuk menjadi seorang manusia yang berguna dan berjaya,bukanlah setakat ilmu pengetahuan yang banyak tetapi lengkap dengan ciri-ciri murni dan moral yang tinggi.Itulah yang menentukan kejayaan seseorang dan bukannya kekayaan dari segi harta benda.

Dalam kuliah akhir ini,saya mengenangkan balik kesemua kuliah yang telah dijalankan.Banyak pengajaran yang telah dipelajari.Nilai kasih sayang,membantu individu yang kurang bernasib baik,bekerjasama,hormat-menghormati dan bantu membantu.Inilah yang membuatkan kuliah ini begitu istimewa dan sememangnya tidak dapat dilupai.Dalam kuliah terakhir kami diberi aktiviti yang saya rasa amat lucu dan menarik.Mencari silang kata yang berkaitan dengan Multimedia,apa yang dipelajari sepanjang semester dalam kuliah.Namun,kami diberi masa sebanyak 10 minit untuk mencari perkataan tersebut dan menghantarnya mengikut kumpulan.Setelah tamat masa kami bergegas untuk menghantar teka silang kata itu kerana Dr memberi amaran kumpulan mana yang menghantar paling akhir akan mendapat markah 0.Jadi,hampir separuh daripada kelas bergegas ke hadapan untuk menghantarnya.Disebabkan salah seorang daripada ahli kumpulan saya tidak menulis namanya di atas kertas,maka kumpulan kami mendapat markah 0.Selepas itu, dengan menggunakan kertas yang sama kami dikehendaki untuk membuat origami.Pening kepala dibuatnya kerana saya sememangnya tidak pandai origami.Kertas dilipat-lipat sehingga renyuk dan ada yang telah pun rosak.Dan di situlah merupakan kuliah terakhir ….

Tidak lupa juga kepada kelas tutorial Multimedia.Cik Aliaa juga tidak kurang garangnya.Pada hari pertama tutorial,saya telah kena diejek olehnya.Tetapi saya pun sedar saya juga melakukan kesilapan.Masih ingat tugasan pertama dalam kelas tutorial ialah untuk menghasilkan calendar untuk tahun 2009.Saya merupakan seorang yang amat bodoh dalam computer.Selain daripada MSN, check email dan Facebook,saya sememangnya tidak tahu apa-apa tentang kegunaan komputer apatah lagi menggunakan Photoshop.Cik Aliaa telah menunjukkan beberapa cara untuk menggunakan Photoshop dan kami mempunyai masa selama sebulan untuk menyiapkan
Kalendar tersebut.Cik Aliaa telah memberi tips kepada kami yang Dr Normaliza tidak suka gambar-gambar kartun jadi sememangnya saya tidak akan
menggunakan sebarang kartun di dalam kalendar saya.Selain itu,kalendar
tersebut hendaklah direka dengan kreativit dan memenuhi keperluan Multimedia.Mula-mulanya saya mengumpul ‘wallpaper’ yang akan saya gunakan untuk membuat kalendar saya.Boleh dikatakan untuk saya membuat ini,adalah amat susah kerana ini merupakan kali pertama saya didedahkan kepada benda seperti ini.

Saya mula mencari di dalam Internet dan juga mendapatkan pertolongan daripada kawan saya untuk mengajar saya untuk menggunakan
Photoshop.Sepanjang membuat kalendar ini,saya banyak menghabiskan masa di Starbuck dengan laptop saya membuat kalendar ini.Selepas saya tahu serba-sedikit tentang penggunaan Photoshop saya mula suka membuat kalendar ini.Tetapi untuk membuat satu bulan dalam kalendar menggunakan usaha yang banyak.Bukan senang.Nasib baik saya mempunyai seorang kawan yang memberi tunjuk ajar kepada saya tentang penggunaan Photoshop.Sekiranya tidak,saya pun tidak tahu sama ada saya dapat menyiapkan kalendar tersebut dengan cantik.Boleh dikatakan sekarang saya telah tahu bagaimana untuk menggunakan Photoshop dengan cekap.

Pada mulanya,hasil kalendar saya tidak berapa memuaskan selepas Cik Aliaa membuat semakan.Saya terpaksa menambah gambar ataupun apa-apa sahaja untuk membuatnya lebih menarik dan kreatif.Oleh itu,selepas kelas tutorial hari itu,pada keesokan harinya,saya telah pergi ke Starbuck dan menhabiskan masa selama 4-5 jam untuk menyiapkan kalendar tersebut dan dihantar untuk dicetak.

Tugasan kedua untuk tutorial ialah membuat webpage offline menggunakan Microsoft Frontpage.Sekali lagi,saya didedahkan kepada sesuatu yang amat baru kepada saya.Kami dikehendaki untuk membuat webpage tentang diri saya sendiri dan apa yang paling penting yang ditekankan di dalam tugasan ini adalah Hyperlink..Menyambungkan satu halaman dengan halaman yang lain.Kami diberi masa 3 minggu untuk menyiapkan tugasan ini.Sesuatu
yang baru dan mencabar untuk saya.Tetapi untuk tugasan ini saya berasa amat bangga kerana saya telah membuatnya dengan daya usaha saya sendiri dan saya telah mengajar rakan-rakan saya yang lain.

Boleh dikatakan saya semakin suka untuk membuat tugasan menggunakan komputer setelah berjaya menghasilkan kalendar dengan menggunakan Photoshop.Saya berasa amat gembira kerana dapat mempelajari sesuatu yang baru.Dulu,saya selalu berasa amat hairan kenapa orang boleh duduk berjam-jam lamanya di depan komputer.Dan sekarang saya memahaminya.Apabila diberi sesuatu tugasan yang menarik,masa untuk membuatnya berlalu dengan cepat.Melalui tutorial,saya banyak mempelajari program-program dalam komputer dengan penggunaannya yang sebelum ini saya tidak akan mempelajarinya langsung.Hasil tugasan webpage ini amatlah memuaskan kerana Cik Aliaa memuji saya dan webpage saya.Dia kata amat cantik dan bagus.

Tugasan yang terakhir untuk kelas tutorial ialah untuk menghasilkan blog sendiri dan mencari tokoh bahasa dan menulis mengenainya.Ini merupakan tugasan yang sedang saya buat sekarang.Kami dikehendaki membuat sesi temubuat dengan tokoh tersebut dan mengambil gambar dengan tokoh tersebut.Saya telah memilih Dr Zaitul Azma.Sepatutnya kami diberi masa 2 minggu untuk menyiapkan tugasan ini tetapi Cik Aliaa
tidak ada pada minggu ke-13 dan kami telah dibenarkan untuk menghantarnya pada minggu ke-14.Banyak yang saya pelajari di dalam kelas tutorial ini.Dulu,saya merupakan seorang yang langsung tidak berminat dengan komputer dan segala program yang terdapat di dalamnya.Selepas menghadiri kelas tutorial ini,saya telah banyak mempelajari penggunaan setiap program di dalam komputer dan saya mendapati ia amat berfaedah dan menambahkan minat saya terhadap komputer.

Semasa saya mula masuk ke Universiti Putra Malaysia,sikap yang saya bawa ke dalam alam pengajian adalah Cuma untuk mendapat ijazah dan
tidak akan bersungguh-sungguh untuk belajar.Cuma datang ke Universiti hadir kuliah,ambil peperiksaan dan graduat.Secara jujur,tidak pernah saya menikmati ataupun memberi perhatian kepada kuliah-kuliah yang telah saya ambil dari Semester 1 hingga kini.Tetapi setelah saya mengambil kursus ini dan mengenali Dr serta guru kelas tutorial,pandangan saya terhadap kuliah dan segalanya telah berubah.Saya mula memahami betapa mulianya kerja seorang lecturer dan apa yang dibawanya ke dalam kuliah.

Saya amat menikmati segala kuliah dan tutorial sepanjang semester ini.Terima kasih kerana memberikan pengalaman yang manis di samping belajar dan juga dapat melakukan aktiviti yang bermakna.Terima kasih kepada Dr dan Cik Aliaa kerana telah banyak membantu dan mengajar saya dan yang pasti kamu akan selalu berada di dalam ingatan saya.

sEMInAR dAN pERsiDaNgAn .. ..

2009-04-08T12:07:00.000+08:00

Dr Zaitul banyak menghadiri seminar dan mempunyai tugas-tugas yang tertentu dari peserta hinggalah menjadi pembentang kertas kerja.Berikut merupakan seminar-seminar yang dihadiri oleh beliau dan peranan beliau dalam seminar dan persidangan tersebut.

i. Bengkel Bahasa dan Komunikasi 14-16 Januari 2005 Fasilatator
FBMK,UPM Hotel Cititel,
Midvalley, KL

ii Seminar Penyelidikan Bahasa, 17-19 Januari 2005 Pembentang Kertas
Sastera, Budaya dan Bilik Seri Amar Kerja
Komunikasi, dan Bilik Seri Setia
FBMK FBMK. UPM

iii Majlis Ceramah Penyelidikan Dewan Seminar, Peserta
Bahasa “Adverbs in Malay: Tingkat 2, Menara Dewan
Finding a solution” Bahasa dan Pustaka, K.L

iv Seminar Za’ba Mengenai Alam 22-24 Februari 2005 Pembentang
Melayu II Hotel Prince Kertas kerja
Anjuran Institut Peradaban Melayu & Residence
UPSI dan DBP K.Lumpur

v. Seminar Kebangsaan Linguistik 12-13 April 2005 Pembentang kertas
kerja (SKALI) Fakulti Sains Sosial dan
Anjuran Bersama Kemanusiaan, UKM
Pusat Pengajian Bahasa dan
Linguistik, FSSK, UKM dan
DBP.

vi. MICOLLAC 2005 23-25 April 2005 Pembentang
Anjuran Jab. Bahasa Inggeris, Holiday Villa, Subang Kertas kerja
FBMK, UPM

vii. Seminar Linguistik dan 28 Mei 2005 Pengerusi Seminar
Bahasa Melayu I Dewan Persidangan Pembentang Anjuran Jabatan Bahasa Melayu Pusat Pendidikan Luar, Kertas kerja
Dengan kerjasama Bahagian UPM
Majalah, DBP.

gAmbar deNgAn Dr zAItuL dAn tEsiSnYa ..

2009-04-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

aRtiKeL dR zAitUl dAlAm MajAlAh DBP ...

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Dr Zaitul juga menerbitkan artikelnya di majalah Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka.Dalam majalah DBP,beliau banyak menulis tentang kemartabatan Bahasa Melayu dan juga berunsurkan Bahasa Melayu kepada kanak-kanak.Sebahagian daripada artikel di majalah DBP dikumpulkan di sini :

“Bahasa Kebangsaan dan Negara Bangsa”. Dewan
Bahasa, Jilid 4 (10): 22-27.

“Unsur Budaya dalam Bahasa Melayu” Dewan
Bahasa, Jilid 4 (11): 36-41

“ Komsas Menguji Kemahiran Berfikir Pelajar”
Pelita Bahasa, Jilid 16 (12): 14-17

“Psikolinguistik dalam pengajaran dan Pemelajaran
Bahasa” , Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 4 (12): 12-17.

“Bacalah dalam Bahasamu” . Dewan Bahasa,
Jilid 5 (1): 12-15

“Bahasa sebagai Jati Diri”
Pelita Bahasa. Jilid 17 (2): 16-19

“Melentur Buluh Biarlah Waktu Rebung ”.
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 5 (3): 10-14.

“Kelas Bahasa Melayu yang hirdup”.
Pelita Bahasa. Jilid 17 (4): 16-19

“Terhakis kerana Sikap” Dewan
Bahasa, Jilid 5 (5): 24-26

“ Guru Penyayang Pelajar Sayang”
Pelita Bahasa, Jilid 17 (5): 12-15

“Kamus dan Kehidupan”,
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 5 (6): 46-49.

“Berbudi Bahasa Cerminan Didikan Awal
Pelajar“ .Pelita Bahasa, Jilid 17 (6): 15-18

“Penyelidikan Membina Tamadun Bangsa”
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 5 (9): 20-23.

“Ceria Pelajar Bahasa Kedua”
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 5 (10): 48-52.

“Adab Berbahasa Bermula di Rumah”
Pelita Bahasa, Jilid 17 (11): 8-11.

“Jajah Bangsa Sebar Bahasa”
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 5 (12): 16-21.

“Menjelang 2020” Dewan Bahasa,
Jilid 6 (13): 14-19.

“Mengucapkan Cinta”.Dewan Bahasa,
Jilid 6 (2): 14-17.

“Bahasa dalam Pendidikan Kanak-kanak”
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 6 (3): 28-33.

“Merancang Cara Belajar”. Pelita Bahasa,
Jilid 18 (4): 8-11

“Pelaburan Bahasa Melayu di Persada Global”
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 6 (5): 16-21.

“Bahasa Indeks Tamadun Bangsa”
Dewan Bahasa, Jilid 6 (6): 10-13.

aRTikEL dALAM jURnaL dOmEsTiK dAn anTArAbANgSa

2009-04-08T11:32:00.000+08:00

Dr Zaitul menerbitkan artikel dan jurnal domestik dan juga antarabangsa.Beliau sememangnya amat aktif dalam menerbitkan jurnal yang dapat memperkembangkan dan meningkatkan status Bahasa Melayu di mata dunia.Antara jurnal domestik dan antarabangsanya ialah :

ARTIKEL JURNAL ANTARABANGSA

Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah (2006). “Speech Amongst Malay Children: An Insight of Living and Maturity” . Journal of PAAL , Volume 10, No 2 107-123

Normaliza Abd. Rahim and Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah (2006). “To Collaborate or Not to Collaborate: An Imaginative Learning Approach” . Journal of PAAL , Volume 10, No 2 143-171

Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah Normaliza Abd. Rahim, Normahdiah S. Said and Norizan Che Su .(2007) ” The Inclusion of Semantic and Pragmatic Approach in the Teaching of The Malay Language” The International Journal of Learning, Volume 14, : Common Ground Publishing Pty.Ltd Melbourne, Australia.

Normaliza Abd. Rahim,Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah, Normahdiah S. Said and Norizan Che Su. (2007) ” An Imaginative Learning Approach to Using The Computer: An Insight with the Special Needs Children”. The International Journal of Learning, Volume 14, : Common Ground Publishing Pty.Ltd Melbourne, Australia

ARTIKEL JURNAL DOMESTIK

Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah (2003 ). “Gangguan dalam Sistem Giliran Bertutur Kanak-kanak Melayu” Jurnal Bahasa Jilid 3 Bil 4: 568-587.

Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah (2003) “Peranan Konteks dengan
Gangguan dalam perbualan kanak- kanak”. Jurnal Bahasa Jilid 3 Bil 4 : 624-640.

Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah (2004). “Penggunaan Kata Ganti Nama ‘Dia’ dan ‘Kita’ dalam Pertuturan Kanak-kanak Melayu: Satu Analisis Pragmatik”. Jurnal Bahasa Jilid 4 Bil 1: 186-204

Zaitul Azma Zainon Hamzah (2005). “Bahasa Konteks, dan Pemikiran
Kanak-kanak Melayu: Satu Analisis Pragmatik”. Jurnal Bahasa, Jilid 5
Bil 2 134-153

sUBjek bAhAsA mElAYu yAng dIAjaR ...

2009-04-08T11:18:00.000+08:00

Dr Zaitul merupakan tenaga pengajar di Universiti Putra Malaysia.Beliau mengajar beberapa subjek Bahasa Melayu iaitu :

BBM 3104 Bahasa Melayu Klasik

BBM 3206 Semantik

BBM 5401 Pemerolehan Bahasa

BBM 5402 Analisis Bezaandan Kesilapan

BBM 6402 Penelitian Kualitatif Dalam Penyelidikan Bahasa Melayu

kHiDMAt pROfEsIOnAl dR zAitUl ..

2009-04-08T11:00:00.000+08:00

Tokoh-tokoh Melayu menawarkan khidmat profesionalnya yang tersendiri dalam bidang kemahiran mereka.Justeru,Dr Zaitul sangat aktif dalam menawarkan khidmat profesionalnya.Beliau banyak terlibat dalam menjadi jurulatih,panel,pemeriksa dan sebagainya.Di antaranya ialah :

1. Jurulatih Modul Kenegaraan Program Latihan Khidmat Negara Siri 1,2, dan 3 (2004)
2. Panel Pentaksir Soalan Bahasa Melayu 910/1 (STPM) 2004, 2005
3. Penggubal Soalan Bahasa Melayu 910/1 (STPM)2005.
4. Pemeriksa Kertas Bahasa Melayu 910/2 (STPM) 2005.
5. Penyelia Latihan Mengajar & Praktikum Kaunseling Semester Kedua 2004/2005, Fakulti Pendidikan, UPM

6. Penyelia Latihan Mengajar & Praktikum Kaunseling Semester Kedua 2005/2006, Fakulti Pendidikan, UPM

7. Tenaga Pengajar Program Cuti Semester Pelajar Bahasa Melayu,
Universiti Deakin, Melbourne, Australia dari 18 Disember 2004-31 Januari 2005.

8 Tenaga Pengajar Program Cuti Semester Pelajar Bahasa Melayu,
Universiti Deakin, Melbourne, Australia dari 19 Disember 2005- 27 Januari 2006.

9. Pembimbing ‘On-Site’ Murid Pendidikan Khas Bermasalah
Pembelajaran, SMK Putrajaya Presint 11

10. Menyunting ‘Questionnaire Lang Choise’ untuk Bahagian Penyuntingan
dan Penterjemahan

11. Penterjemah ‘Laman Web Fakulti Perubatan dan Sains Kesihatan’ untuk
Bahagian Penyuntingan dan Penterjemahan.

12. Penterjemah ‘Distance Assisted Training Programme for Nuclear
Medicine Technologists’ untuk Fakulti Perubatan, UPM

13. Analisis Deskriptif Bahasa Melayu Novel Terjemahan ‘Kenang-kenangan
Seorang Geisha’ dalam Siri Wacana PPBL, UKM

kEcEnDeRunGan pEnyEliDikAn ...

2009-04-07T14:43:00.000+08:00

Kecenderungan penyelidikan beliau termasuklah :

- Semantik dan Pragmatik

- Bahasa Melayu ( Pengajaran dan Pembelajaran Bahasa Melayu )

- Bahasa Melayu ( Pemerolehan Bahasa , Sosiolinguistik dan Terjemahan )

- Penelitian Kualitatif dalam kajian bahasa dan budaya

bIdAnG kEpAkARan ...

2009-04-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

Setiap tokoh Melayu mempunyai bidang kepakarannya yang tersendiri.Justeru,Bidang kepakaran Dr Zaitul ialah seperti yang berikut :

1. Semantik dan Pragmatik / Semantic and Pragmatic

2. Pengajaran dan Pembelajaran Bahasa Melayu / Teaching and Learning of Malay Language

3. Pemerolehan Bahasa / Language Acquisition

4. Penterjemahan / Translation

5. Penelitian Kualitatif dalam Bahasa Melayu / Qualitative Research in Malay Studies

dR zAItUL dI uNIveRsiTi pUtRa MalAySia (UPM)

2009-04-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

Nama penuh beliau ialah Dr Zaitul Azma Binti Zainon Hamzah .. Beliau merupakan 'senior lecturer' iaitu pensyarah di Universiti Putra Malaysia .. Beliau bertugas di Jabatan Bahasa Melayu , Fakulti Bahasa Moden dan Komunikasi . Universiti Putra Malaysia , 43400 UPM Serdang ..Bilik beliau terletak di bangunan utama, tingkat ke-2, Fakulti Bahasa Moden dan Komunikasi .. Nombor telefon beliau biliknya di UPM ialah 03-8946 8672 dan e-mel beliau ialah zaitul@fbmk.upm.edu.my

Selain itu,beliau mempunyai kualifikasi dalam Sijil Perguruan (Pendidikan Awal Kanak-kanak) , B.Ed (PBMP) , UPM M.A (Bahasa Melayu) , UPM Ph.D (Bahasa Melayu) dan Upm Diploma Penterjemahan ..

bIoDaTa Dr zAiTul AzmA bInTi ZaiNoN hAmZaH ..

2009-04-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

Dr Zaitul dilahirkan pada tahun 1961 dan merupakan anak ke empat daripada dua belas orang adik beradik.Beliau mendapat pendidikan di Sekolah Rendah Datin Khadijah dan Sekolah Menengah Raja Muda MUsa , Kuala Kangsar,Perak Darul RIdzuan sebelum melanjutkan pelajaran ke Maktab Perguruan Kinta,Jalan Diary,Ipoh Perak Darul RIdzuan pada 1980 bagi mengikuti kursus pendidikan awal kanak-kanak dalam jurusan Bahasa Melayu.

Pada tahun 1982 beliau mula bertugas di Sekolah Kebangsaaan Kuala Kenas,Kuala Kangsar sebelum bertukar ke Sekolah Kebangsaan Temelong ,Lenggong Perak pada tahun 1986..Pada tahun 1993 beliau melanjutkan pelajaran di Universiti Putra Malaysia dalam program Bacelor Pendidikan (Bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa pertama) dan memperoleh Ijazah Bacelor Pendidikan (PBMP) pada tahun 1997.Beliau kemudiannya ditugaskan mengajar di Sekolah Menengah Taman Medan,Petaling Jaya Selangor.Mulai pertengahan tahun 1998,beliau ditugaskan mengajar di Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Seri Serdang, Seri Kembangan Selangor sehingga kini.

Sebagai guru,beliau telah mengajar subjek Bahasa Melayu selama sebelas tahun di sekolah rendah kebangsaan dan empat tahun di sekolah menengah.Dalam tempoh ini, beliau berkesempatan mengkaji segala aspek Bahasa Melayu di kalangan kanak-kanak Melayu sama ada di peringkat rendah mahupun di peringkat sekolah menengah.

sEgAlaNyA mEngEnAiKu ...

2009-04-02T21:22:00.000+08:00

Nama saya Tan Woei Jye , juga dikenali sebagai Jynnie .. Saya dilahirkan pada 31 Mei 1985 dan kini berumur 24 tahun .. Keluarga saya terdiri daripada 4 orang iaitu ibu , bapa , adik lelaki dan saya .. Saya kini merupakan seorang mahasiswa tahun terakhir di Universiti Putra Malaysia yang mengambil Bacelor Bahasa Linguistik Melayu di Fakulti Bahasa Moden dan Komunikasi .. Ketinggian saya ialah 175 cm .. Hobi saya ialah membaca buku cerita , keluar bersama kawan - kawan , membeli belah , dan mendengar lagu .. Saya merupakan seorang yang tinggi , kurus , dan berambut pendek .. Warna kegemaran saya ialah ungu , merah , kuning , dan hijau .. Tempat kegemaran yang selalu saya kunjungi ialah Mid Valley dan Souled Out ( Sri Hartamas ) .. Muzik kegemaran saya ialah muzik yang dapat memberi inspirasi kepada saya dan sedap didengar .. Harapan saya kepada semua individu dan dunia ialah supaya semua orang di dunia ini hidup dengan aman dan gembira setiap hari .. =)

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