Ordinary ..

Its been awhile that i didnt blog.. I've been pretty much busy with work.. Jus out of a sudden just feel like writing something.. Work has tied me up alot .. Days and night been working .. Well,its a good progress in my work though .. Im learning more and more things .. I guess in order for you to be good and learn something you got to let go others things .. In economic,its call kos lepas.. Ive been really concentrate in work that i have less time going out meeting up with my frens. I guess this is the things that i need to less spend time on when i want to succeed in my work .. Well,its not that my frens is not important to me.. Its jus that time now is crucial for me to master the work and biz that im doing.. The minimum time for me to take to master it would be a benefit to me.

In this few month i learn to be independent.To b decisive,to be in order to speak up whats in my mind,and mostly to be confident in myself .. to meet ppl .. learn to be strong,to be able to take up the biz,need alot of strength and hardworking. Newspaper biz is not like other biz.. Its tough.. Well,im up to the challenge.. Im glad that i have a very supportive bf and mentor dad to guide me through .. to shorten my road.. In this i found what i need to improve .. that is to LISTEN.. Listening is the master of everythin .. When i dont listen,i missed out alot .. Ive never regret to take up this road,because it has made me stronger,wiser ..

To all the frens that i sort of lost in touch with this period of time,im sorry .. I miss you guys and really wanted to meet u with you guys and get in touch back as how we are last time ... Knowing that u guys is always in my mind ..

Kok Soon ..

Today i remember a dear fren of mine .. A fren that i come to know during my form 6 years in St John .. A fren that i have lost in touch but he will come across my mind in many different phase in my life.. His image will always come to me whenever im in down moment .. Thinking back on my life back in Form 6,i really did enjoy spending time with him .. Accompanying him walking to the special room when recess started and back to the classroom when its ended.. Reading newspaper and whats new in the news .. Chit chattin with him ..

He to me is a guy who is very talented .. A guy who can score very well in exams .. SPM 8A's if im not mistaken and oso did very well in sports .. But all the talent that is given to him,there is this one incident during primary time that changed his life .. While he was playing basketball wid his fren,his cornea in his eyes fell off,that resulted him being blind ever since then ..

He never gave up his life .. He to me when i knew him,he was a guy who is full with hopes,optimistic,happy,hardworking,strong willed,blind? doesnt stop him from going forward at all .. He get the best results in exams,he won the best sportmans in Paralympic..He even appeared in newspapers .. He is sort of the most inspirational ppl to me .. When i was in my down moment .. I tot of him .. his image will come into my head .. If a man who has been blind not when he was born,he got the chance to see this world and incident happen and he lost sight.. its more suffering than you were born blind.. thats what i thought ..

I told myself given his situation if he can be so strong willed and nothing can stop him from going forward,why cant I?I salute him and he has been an idol to me .. Someone that i really respect and look up to.. His attitude inspires me .. Anyone who come to know this guy you will be amazed how positive and inspiring he is .. I'm the lucky ones ..

1st day without you ..

I thought it was all alrite when i registered you to SPCA for boarding .. You didnt seem to know whut is happening .. Dad felt so heavy hearted and that time i was OK .. I didnt feel as much that i thought i would feel .. weeping away sorrow .. That point when i leave you there i felt 'keberatan'.. but i went away at last .. Office and work has kept me busy not thinking about you ..

But its all coming to me when i reached home .. Daddy and mummy seems to miss you very much .. Our home now is much quieter without your barking sound ...Often i wonder how are you doing there .. Today you went thru nurture,and i hope you rest well .. Eventhough ppl says you will still be that aggresive somehow i hope you will change .. such that one day i will be able to see you again in our home .. I miss the way you climb up and look in through the windows .. ur happiness and waving tail waiting at the gate when we come back ..

I MISS YOU BLACKIE ..

i love you ... but at the same time i hate you ..

It was never easy to let you go .. Especially both of my parents .. Somehow i hope you manage to know how we felt .. Ive never seen my dad cry .. but i saw him cry for you ... and my mum's tear rolling down when she thinks about you..I have no right to determine hows your life should lead to..Ultimately we thought to just let you go in the wild .. hold ur life as ur own .. and today we found out that we can actually place you somewhere else and they can take care of you .. making sure that you get the food and care that you need .. that you wouldnt be put to sleep o staying beside roadside .. Mummy and daddy wouldnt be too worried how will you be ..

From the moment you bite my mum's hand and its the 3rd time .. there is no way that you are gonna stay in this house anymore .. no matter how we has loved you ..In this moment .. the feeling wasnt easy to bear .. Jus wan you to know that we do love you very much .. But you have hurt my mum and she is not the only one that has got bitten by you .. Eventually my dad and bro did and i was the only one who hasnt... Chances were given several times but this time the wound that is in my mum's hand is way to deep ..

Blackie,eventhough you are jus a dog .. i love you as much as i do as a human .. I pray that you will have a good life .. Make many frens in the centre that we r going to send you .. and well, remember us.. Blackie,I love you .. We love you .. .

Daddy fell ...

Yesterday when im in my dreamland sleeping,i heard 'Boom' sound .. at first i thought that was this renovation going on as opposite my place there is still apartment that is still under construction..Next thing i know my mum came knocking and shouting to me and my bro.. 'Daddy pengsan on the floor'... That is when i felt so awake at instant and it is 2.30a.m. i could still remember clearly and the images still running through my head even now .. when i open my door .. i saw across the room,my daddy is lying on the floor unconsciously .. But there is snoring sound coming from him .. My bro rush to my dad and i was still in my room looking across at him,panicked and couldn't move.And suddenly my bro shouted ' Got blood ' ..

That is when i got really paranoid and start dialling 999 .. my voice is so shaken when i talked to the officer..and my bro and mum was beside my dad try waking him up.my line was passed over to hospital call centre where they ask me alot of bullshit question than ever to say at instant to send the ambulance over... My bro overheard my conversation and said.. ' Ill send daddy to hospital. he is awake .. Dont need their ambulance .. we r faster.. That instant i put down the phone and get ready to rush to hospital ..

Daddy has been woken up by my bro,but he couldn't remember what happen and why he end up being there .. I was so so worried and he went to toilet before getting in the car.. and that point of time i was still paranoid.. i am still not sure whether will he suddenly faint again o whatever .. things came pouring into my mind and i couldn't think straight.. I called Kenneth and he rushed over to the hospital...We reach hospital in jus less than10 min .. i guided my dad in and rush over to tell the nurse what happen .. and he was send into the room..When i was there,my mind is still stuck and im still worry and scared .. he faint .. there must b something wrong ..

He had his brain x-ray at 3am..and he got benjol behind his head..It is quite serious for a not so young guy like him that u knock behind ur head .. while waiting for the x ray result,i couldn't talk.. i couldn't think .. i was purely scared .. scared wat if the result shows something negative? i am a person who cry easily but yesterday,i didnt.. it is because what i felt is far worst .. 15 min later,report is out,doc ask us to go in .. and we r blessed that the x ray is normal .. and that is when i pull a weak smile ..

Daddy had been admitted to the hospital..when he was admitted he has fever and also high blood .. It was nearly 5am when everythin is so called settle.. I went back pack some stuff for daddy and bring it for him .. had my work done in the office and spend the rest of the day to accompany him .. doc came in and check .. had him x ray on the chest and doc advised him to stay overnite and discharge this morning for observation.. Daddy like most old man .. doesnt like to stay overnite in the hospital .. who like to stay overnight there anyway? But for his health and make sure he is really okay before he come back home,i encouraged him to stay there awhile more .. That night i accompany my daddy overnighting at the hospital.. kept him company such that he dont feel lonely ..

This morning .. doc came in and check saying daddy is well to do .. but his breathing is still weak on the right .. cause of the cough ...but nothing serious .. he was so happy when he know that he can go back .. i felt relief ... but i still worry about him .. i am glad that he is okay now .. this incident really shocked me and it also made me realize stronger that appreciate every moment with daddy and everyone around me .. 活在当下，珍惜眼前人..

Zainal Abidin- Hijau

Currently this is the song that i always listen too .. somehow it captured my heart .. This song is from 1989..it has been 21 years and i came to kno this song when Kenneth sang it in karaoke .. I found this meaningful ... lets preserve our world to b a better place .. especially when we are facing global warming and environmental issue now .. Song,somehow can bring msg to everyone .. Enjoy .. =)

Fren's mum passing ...

This morning when i was waiting for my haircut appointment,i got a call saying my fren's mum has passed away .. Cancer is the culprit.. Back then when im in high school,i met her mum a few times.. She is a very generous and kind lady..Cant help but felt sadden by this loss .. This news has quite impacted me in a way .. This news came unexpected .. too fast ...If i can feel so sad,i cant imagine how would my fren would have felt .. Jus hope that she will stay strong and take care of herself..and we will be there whenever you need our support ..R.i.p auntie ..

Kenneth's grandpa 100 days ..

Its been exactly 100 days since his grandpa passed away .. Ever since dat,he is sort of not allowed to enter my house .. (some old folks tradition) .. Went to Seremban yest,wake up 5 plus this morning gettin ready for 100 days ceremony at Nirvana Semenyih .. I'm lucky to be able to meet his grandpa when he is still alive back then .. a good soul with warm heart .. Eventhough when i meet him,he barely recognize anyone (he is 99 years old) .. And that was the last time that i ever get to meet him ..

A very new experience for me in this 100 days ceremony.. As Hokkien's tradition,we do it in quite a 'flamboyant' (not sure what suitable word to use) way .. alots of ceremony,stuffs and bla bla bla .. Well,at least i learn how to tanam pineapple today .. Well i guess this is the biggest learning for me today .. haha!will try it myself and see the results .. His whole family + all his uncles and aunties were there .. and they were pretty cool .. funny .. good sense of humour .. I'm sure his grandpa will be very happy to see the whole family together and will take care and watch out for them from above ..

beautiful chat ..

Had a talk with Kenneth jus now in the car for almost 20 min (approx) .. We had chats about our relationship , where is it heading to,our breakdowns, miscommunications and our beloved DRAMA'S .. Funnily enough that we can discuss it openly and laughing all the way in having both of us laughing at ourself on how silly we can be..

There come a point of time i told him ... I miss you being so romantic and putting down the ego to pujuk me .. where is that you? no more geh .. and he laugh .. and said that he is kayu and apparently when he did all those funny lil romantic thingy that i actually didnt give any reaction thats why he sien liao .. dont wanna do already .. (oh damn!!)

We both talk about our arguements .. Last time use to be 7days a week and now it has been improved .. average 1 arguement per week .. why the breakdown? both point finger at each other lo .. and he say 'you think i donno you ah .. i kno you well enough to kno how you will react everytime ..

I guess i really love this conversation .. being open and laugh at ourself and correct all the mistake and breakdown along the way to create better relationship in the future .. no arguement,no deep understanding about each other ..

i'm blessed to have a bf that love me for who am i .. care for me enough to know me so well in person, to accept my goods and bads , mood swings, tsunami swings, whatever swings that i have .. what more can i ask for? oh ya .. romantic bf ... that he say he stopped being because i got no reaction when he is being romantic .. mayb i should have some reaction then?mayb? hm.. will think about it ..

今天的星期六 。。

最近忙的也是工作。。承受的压力。。是必经的。。 爸爸说我太急。。自己给自己很多的不必的压力。。可能是吧。。真的要学习放松一下。。忙了两个星期的工作终于今天完成了。坐着对着电脑已经八个小时了。。完成了觉得有些满足感。。在做着工作的时候一直在听歌。。某一些歌让我想起了很多经历过的事情。。甜的，酸的，苦的。。都有 。。。

这两个多月，忙的是工作和fun quiz。。fun quiz 已经圆满结束了。。准备了两个多月到了当天，终于觉得是值得的。。当天我很享受整个fun quiz。。看到了最大胆的装扮，整个房间充满欢笑声。。一个很不同的体验。。

在整两个月期间，我领悟和学到了很多的东西。。尤其是人性，团体精神，领悟到，之前我不明白的事 。。 有好的，也有不好的。。

人，总是计算不到的。。爸爸说我太天真了。。之前我会发脾气当他这么说我。。但现在，当经过了，我承认我还是很天真。。想的每件事情会很好的，每个人都是很好的。。很圆满的。。但现实是那样的吗？现实是残酷的。。不想去接受但必须的。。我所领悟到的，好的， 我会继续的学习。。 不好的，我会提醒我自己不会对别人那样。。

让我最心痛的是，我以为懂我是怎样的人的朋友都觉得我做不好了，偏私了。。此刻的心情是难以形容的。。但都是过过去了。。写下了，就放下了。。但我总觉得你是懂我的。。我相信。。

现在很多不同了。。很多事情，关系都变了。。时间能回到过去吗？朋友。。有特别几个我是不想失去的。。希望友谊不变。。

Engelbert Humperdick ...

Jus came back from Engelbert Humperdick concert in Genting .. First when i saw this guy and his name i was like .. ennn..gell...what?whos this guys?My mum spontaneously jus speaks his name out.. I turn and look at my mum.. wow .. u actually kno this guy .. Now that i kno he is the one who make this 'Release Me' song a hit song of all times ..

I was quite impressed by his vocal .. At the age of nearly 70 perhaps?he still can sing non stop for 2 hours and his vocal is remarkable .. A song that seems not familiar but i be really impress with his vocal.. Its amazing .. (Personal opinion : watching guai lo concert is totally different feel than those chinese ones .. ) ..

Nevertheless,somehow rather his performance tonight had me go thinking dat the older guai lo the more ham sap they are though.. fills with his porn jokes,kissing audience (and i mean mouth to mouth more than once .. ) .. and bla bla bla .. Well mayb Malaysian ere including me is not really that open minded yet though .. different perspective different view .. But i have a personal experience of getting to know a older guai lo that kinda same 'fashion' like him too .. haha! (some of you might kno who am i referring to ) That is why i have this belief that the older they are the more 'h*rny' they are .. haha!

Well jus besides dat .. its quite an entertaining concert for me .. and the vocal is absolutely amazing .. Thumbs up!!

cYcLE of blaming ..

Jus feel like bloggin it out .. Near my office's traffic light has been real disaster.. Not long ago.. both sides traffic lights is not functioning at all .. Called JKR .. Nothing is done .. Well .. First attempt ..

Recently the traffic light went off again .. for both side .. total of 6 traffic light is not working at all .. Foresee accident o fight will occur if nothing is done to fixed the damn traffic light.. Early in the morning called JKR .. Nice voice and greetings .. 'Hi! I would like to inform you about traffic light that is not functioning' .. and she answer .. 'Oh, i think that is JKR Electric side .. I give you the number .. 03-9285***.. Well, okay ..

Straight dialled the number.. told them the same thing .. 'Oh,traffic light that area is under DBKL'.. Ok cool~ Keep my temper and called DBKL eventually asking the same thing when the operator answered the call .. Guess what .. The answer that i get was 'Oh, is it the traffic light under the bridge which is alo lead to MRR2? oh .. she knows it and knows the place .. Well,a slight chance that they are the one who fix it .. And the following phrase that she tell me was .. 'Oh,that one you should call MPAJ .. They are the one who fixed it'..

Well,ive called JKR and DBKL.. so both of them denying it tht they are the one who is accountable on it .. so now jus left MPAJ .. who can they blame on summore .. so since dat ive called 2 useless body .. ma as well go for the last one also .. Called up MPAJ .. telling the same phrase .. and their answer was ' Oh you should call JKR .. they are the one who in charge of it .. Damn!! this is how the government body works? passing blame to each other?its really a cycle .. u blame me,i blame u,then i blame you back ..

I told the operator 'YOU LISTEN HERE.. IVE CALLED JKR,DBKL AND NOW YOU .. Before i could even finish my phrase .. she added ' Oh no .. i call you to call JKR not DBKL .. and loudly i say u listen ere i said I CALLED JKR AND THEY TELL ME IS DBKL, AND WHEN I CALLED DBKL THEY SAY ITS YOU,AND WHEN I CALL YOU , YOU SAY IS JKR, HOW NOW?!! .. then she say wid a impatient voice .. oh sorry .. i will call JKR now .. ya rite !!!

Eventually when i go back passing the traffic light after work,nothing is done at all from morning till the evening .. A little things like this also cant be able to handle,wanna improve the whole country ? Are you serious?

我生日的惊喜。。

不知不觉我生日过了一个星期，也不知不觉我已经25岁了。。时间真的过的很快。。还记得那时我20岁的时候觉得那么的年轻。。有一天妈妈提醒我已经25岁了才发现原来我不像当年那么的年轻了。过去的生日我会很期待的去庆祝。。可是今年我很想很简单的庆祝我的生日。。可能人老了吧。。。 哈哈。。

星期天我一家人 跟我阿姨一起去buffet 。。爸爸妈妈两人送了一个MacBook Pro 给我。。一个我很想拥有的礼物。。最想不到的是我弟弟送给我的礼物。。让我很感动。。虽然他可不是很名贵的礼物但是当我收到的时候，我却很感动。。谢谢你给我一个很有意思的礼物。。

弟弟送给我的礼物。。

我的生日是在星期一。。平常星期一我都很忙。。 那天也不例外。。 忙了一整天。。要赶去Asiawork，有个meeting .. 但是我不知道的是我一班朋友做了一个惊喜给我。。我真的没想到。。 真的觉得很惊喜。。谢谢你们给我这个难忘的惊喜。。 谢谢你们的用心良苦。。可惜的是我男朋友不能出席这个惊喜。。

今年的生日我特别开心。。虽然简单，但是形象横深刻。。拥有一个温暖的家，一个很体谅我的男朋友，一班很好的朋友。。我觉得很幸福喔 。。。

人总要信 ..

After 1 week of ups and down .. Its really great to be with great frens having nice outing,karaokeing(screaming the lungs out), watching movie in the cinema (and cry like nobody's business) .. back at home now,tired but feel like blogging a few words ..

I was introduced a song by a great fren of mine while on the way back home.. He told me its was a really great song .. The minute she sang ... IT IS .. No doubt im always attracted to songs which has meaningful lyric .. And this song is really as he say suitable for i know who .. The lyrics inside really speaks about them .. And i really do wish that one day I would b able to present this song to them .. I know time wont wait and summore after watching 'Echoes of the rainbow' .... 'Human greatest enemy is time ... '... And i kno how impactful this song is to them ... And i would really love to see what the process and how the outcome will be .. And im sure it is something that i really would be longing to see it happen ...... '人总要信' ...

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If i can, I wish this page of blog that i'm writting now,i would like to write it in Mandarin.This 2 days especially today .. It had been one of the hardest day for me to go through by far..I thought everything happen for a reason. I try to rationalize it.All this while ive been to idealistic.Everyone around tell me,when you do good,ppl will do good back to you..But how true is dat in the real world?Especially in biz world.Sometime i would have thought that am i suitable to be in biz given that im naive and idealistic.This question had been running through my mind the whole day today..In my mind,do my best dont care about whut ppl say or backstabbed..But is it when you do good,people will appreciate?and never backstabbed you?and never do something to pull you down?Im realistic in a way,everyone is good.. I still think it is though .. but agenda happens different times proven otherwise.. In jus 1 days, I came to discover alot of things that ive never thought i will be going through ..people say thing that can make u die,only will make you stronger.. I know im strong enough to go through this .. And i will succeed ..

Being too emotional wouldnt be good.. Being too realistic woouldnt be good either.. Im struggling to go through this i must admit. Reason being? Ive no idea..Sometimes i would wish that im would be more clever,be able not to feel bad and sad.. But what im sad is,why human being can be so selfish? Why it is not about teamwork?Why isnt it about helping and supporting each other but rather I'll make sure you die such that i can conquer everything?I envy you do good,therefore i must pull you down and create some problem to you .. SURVIVAL MODE .. I always remind myself that human being are born good..There will be one day that i will see a community that talks about peace,supporting ... But other than whut i see now.. its otherwise.. How long more that i can keep the believe that everyone is good when everything that happen its against whut i believe? i donno .. Mayb some ppl will say that im stupid to have a thought like dat .. its does sounds stupid but i do believe.. If the world is like this, it will be a better place to live in .. no more wars,no global warming ... Mayb this is idealistic..

I admit today everything seems to fall on today .. in every aspect of my life.. Change it to another perspective,its a good thing as if it not whut happen to day .. it will not make me realize and grow ..Every incidence is a chance to learn.. Deep in my heart,im really really hurt and my eyes is watery when i wrote this blog .. It was not planned.. I jus write whutever i feel like writing.. Had a jog in the evening .. was so commited to making it happen no matter what and yes i did jog .. Its the only time for me today to really relax and try to find peace with myself.. Im feeling very very 'san fu' ..And i let this feeling in .. It hurts .. I got to let it in to be able to let it go ...Keep telling myself I'm gonna be okay ..and I will ...

I questioned myself .. is it normal to go through this?or is it jus im stupid enough not to cope on this?How do i go through this,o in another way,how do i handle this?Trust? What is trust?Support?In the real world especially in biz,is there any?Backstabbing?An activity that everyone is interested in?Betray?I think it came in a package wit trust..I feel like im being blindfolded.. I donno whats that anymore .. Question is .. is it im the one who has change? or is this the time i came to see the real realistic world?

What i want is always simple .. I guess it has never change ever since..I hope this world is a place where there is no hatred,betrayal,selfishness and everyone living the moment purely without ever need to calculate will other ppl harming in any way ..

As far as it seems,from idealistic going through realistic is not a smooth process.I got to stay strong.By the end of it,the only thing that i want is when I'm in this realistic world,i dont get drift and blindfolded by it ... I'm still the same old Jynnie Tan that everyone used to know ..

Are you an Attention Seeker .. ?

This particular signboard caught my eyes .. and i was like ' I want to take a photo of it ' ... I thought it was a great advertising idea .. and its very eye catching .. Mayb im an attention seeker therefore it jus caught my eyes .. haha! Creative idea to make ppl take a look at it ..

Speaking of attention seeker .. From my point of view,everyone is an attention seeker though .. Its jus the level attention seekerness level is high or low .. I think it certainly OK to be attention seekers sometimes .. But dont have it overboard cause it might disgust other ppl .. Look at the situation and act accordingly .. You know whut i mean? haha!Too much of it would be irritating though ..

Klang + Skybridge ..

There are reasons why i put this 2 place together .. Hmmmm ... =)

Last weekend ... as promised and as planned ... at last ive determine to go down to Klang once to visit Keng yee ( as he has been bugging me to visit him and his house for so so long time edi ) .. and my bad .. that my laziness is the worst disease of all .. haha! And that weekend itself ive plan to visit BoON Siong and his newborn cutesy baby ... With Matt and Jun along .. it was fun all the way .......

Bak Kut Teh - Keng yEE house - Boon Siong's house and we ended our day with our beloved steamboat ... and we had our deep deep chat there and we sat almost 3 hours there chatting ..

Well, what motivates me to write this post was ..... later you'll know la .. hehe!

Monday night, i received Matt's invitation to go up the Skybridge of the Twin Tower .. I was so flattered and i ask whther o not it is possible to bring my mum up .. and he said YES!! i was so happy .. My MUM longing to go up to the Sky bridge for so long and her dream will come true ...

Thanks to Matt that we are able to go up the Skybridge .. and my mum was so happy ... (big smile) ...

These are few pics that we took when we were in Skybridge ..

Didnt get a change to go out from KLCC to catch a photo of the twin tower .. But i guess the picture below do resemblance the Twin tower though.. With the Skybridge in between .... hahah! Gotcha Matt!! Dont be Mad yah !! wow it rhymes ....

I personally love this pic alot .... Love and hugs to both of you ...

1 year Anniversary ....

26/3/2010 ...

Its our 1 year being together .. Funny thing is it doesnt seems like 1 year already .. Recall back how we started and the situation .. I can smile sweetly from my heart .. Its feels real good being with him .. A guy that i can be who i am when im wid him and accept me for who i am .. What more can i ask for ...

It was friday and we didnt have much time to celebrate as its a working day and this year we kept it simple .. Cause its our golden time to earn money .. so therefore if we wanted to celebrate it lavishly it would be a few years later .. =) Met him up and he brought me to dinner .. In the car, I told him .. " Wah .. tak sangka we 1 year edi lo .. " and he replied .. " Yeah lo .. One whole year of arguing and dramas everyday ... " and we survivedddd .. hahhaha! I laugh at his reply ..

Looking back this 1 year .. its been a pretty rollercoaster year .. Mayb its because its the beginning for us to really know each other therefore we cant be escaping the arguing and the drama part .. I can proudly say its getting better day by day.. At least he still survived rite ? (Now u know who cause all the dramas when i said that ) haha!

About him, he's been a guy that ive always wanted to be wid .. I remembered small times, I will always wish for a guy who love me for who i am .. Its not about wealthy o not, background o any other things .. but sincere love and a guy who can go up and down go throught waves togehter with me .. This 1 year .. without fail , he's been real good to me .. being patient when im impatient and short fuse (which is always ) .. be there to encourage me and lift me up again when i breakdown .. Treating my parents and family well like his own .. Like i said what more can i ask for ... 'You love a person when you see their imperfection as perfection'.. Of coz such a great guy like him do have flaw .. who dont have ? Well , i can proudly say he's perfect to me ...

For this 1 year, i enjoyed your company and i do feel love surrounded me and being loved .. Love you ~~ Let's build this up together ...

Missing thumbdrive ..... plz come back ..

Today its been the worst day in my life .. I had lost my thumbdrive .. I didnt kno how did it happen .. This morning brought it to office to print something out to let me dad see .. didnt work out so i unplug it from the server and put it back in my pocket ..

The next second that i realize when i back home and wanted to print it out at home,it went missing .. Search it all in my car .. didnt see it anywhere .. Trying to recall where it would be and where have i been .. I jus been to 2 place .. my office and bank .. ridiculous .. Shit really happens .. Called up office and went back search .. DONT HAVE ..

Came back home .. i started crying loudly ... I lost my thumbdrive wid all my hardwork for months inside .. I feel really really bad .. Without thinking much i ask bro to drive me to Maybank .. Searched on the road,asked the counter they didnt see it .. Search again my car .. It nowhere to be seen ..

Now i would jus pray that it pop up in my office .. waiting for me to collect it back ... Please come back ...

Dream Wedding ..

I always had a very very good imagination about weddings .. Everytime when i attend weddings, i feel very very happy and i actually feels that the 2 ppl who is going down the aisle is now being together till old, happy ever after and live a very blissful life ..

These few years, Ive been attending quite a few wedding dinner .. some at Restaurant and should i say mostly at restaurant and some at hotels .. However despite celebrating the newly weds,i feel nowadays wedding is to commercialized .. Basically every steps and itinerary is the same .. Such as ...

Welcoming the guest ..
Newly weds come in throught the door ..
Sits down and food performance by the restaurant ..
Until have way , newly wed is being invited up to the stage to cut cake and pour champagne ..
and both parents go up and yam seng ..
After all that is done,mayb the newly wed is asked to hug o kiss ..
Newlywed will now go table to table for yam seng ..
And thats the end after every food is served and newly wed will b standing at the door to usher guests out ..

Yesterday i attended a wedding in Muar and its the same as above.. And that time my mind wanders abit far .. i start to think about how i would like my wedding be like ...

I know i wan it to be special .. different from all the commercialized wedding .. Last time,i always dream of garden wedding for night.. Fills wid lights everywhere and fireworks to end the night .. it will be really romantic .. For morning, i would like it be like a very traditional Chinese wedding whereby bride will be wearing 'kei po' and groom will be wearing chinese custome wid a big flower tie in front .. And our home will be lighten up wid big red candles like those Chinese traditional wedding in TV ..

Most importantly is actually the meaning of 2 ppl being together .. wedding is jus a process and of coz i always love to be one of those that old man & aunt still holding hand walking at the street eventhough they are 70 - 80 years old .. I feel that it is so sweet .. And i hope during my old days,im like that ...

Genting getaway wid 2 important Man in my life ...

hehe! Here I am again ..

This week has been real cool to me .. Went up to GeNTING to watch SaMMI'S concert .. I had a great daddy driving me up to the hills and watch it while he will be enjoying his time at the casino or having a cup of hot latte,chilling in the cool weather .. Manage to went in casino before the show and had a few rounds of cards .. Well,luck not tat good today though .. haha! tHe casino was rather pack wid aunties an uncles!! What surprises me is how ppl place their bet .. At a point of time i saw this guy .. putting chips like 5 chip of rm500 and on top of that 5-6 chipz of rm100 .. jus for a round of Baccarat .. woooSHH .. I was like eyes oso open damn wide .. eventhough my eyes was really small .. doesnt make any diff .. Lucky enuf for him that he won that round .. Well,this time around i got to kno that in casino u got a few privilege .. first,there are places who is open for UMUM .. and yet daddy said have u gone in seen the International Room?Free drinks is served .. and its ginseng tea .. I was like it is meant to cool you down if u lose the money?or is it a pscycho for u to have the ginseng such that u r braver to bet more money?ha!

Went to Sammi's concert after have free dinner buffet at Terrace Coffee .. Kenneth went there wid me .. We were seated i would say near to the stage .. It was jus 10+ rows away from the stage ..Near in the sense that we are able to see Sammi's real person .. The concert was awesome .. Sammi pull it off wif a range of 'Lady Gaga's fashion sense of clothes .. There are rock songs and also love songs .. But wat pissed me off a while was the ppl who stand up and jus block the view for ppl who are sitting behind them .. Which i m one of them .. For those ppl , i would call them abunch of 'ATTENTION SEEKERS' that they thought by stading up in some way Sammi would have seen them .. and nevertheless to say selfish enuf that they only think about themselve wanted to see and not the ppl sitting behind of them .. Atone point of time,i always crumbled up some paper and feeling like throwing it to them .. Well,human nature mayb?If only this world fills wid compassion and care for each other and having a big huge heart .. Sammi to my experience is a real straight forward , auntentic and funny performer . Thumbs Up to her!!

The concert ended quite early though as she had another more round on Saturday .. Went back up to casino to find my daddy .. He was there and gave me a sum of money to play .. I was looking at the chip and ask my dad,if i didnt use it to gamble,can i jus take this money to save in bank?He looked at me at smile ,and of coz im jus joking .. taking dads money to save in bank , ma as well i earn my own money and save it .. Not going to be so dependent on him anymroe like last time .. More so im grown up edi and time passess im 25 this year .. OH NO !!! ... Went for rounds of card again .. Luck was really not that good this time around .. as last time always went i went up i ended up helping my dad to win money.. hehe! but lucky enuf that from losing few hundreds i end up losing rm50..

Well i always have this thinking about gambling .. To me , gambling was never really good afterall .. It was okay if u kno ur own limits and play for relaxing .. But its a definitely NO NO for those who gamble for their future .. Using all the money,gamble house and eventually lost everything ? I sometime went into casino and i observed alots of things ..

After the casino tour,we had our quick drink at the Coffee Bean and came down after that .. Cool and chilling night .. Sammi, i love you and ur songs! U r awesome .. ..
=)

hAkka mEe at Seremban ~ di sebalik Tabir ..

Its been a few times that i had this famously Hakka Mee in Seremban ..and this time i choose to blog about this behind the scene .. untold story of the Hakka Mee .. something strike me to do so .. haha!

First time i was brought by Kenneth to eat at this shop .. old style shop,basically 1 woman wid cap cooking the mee in front of the shop, a few table available .. simple as that .. but what unique about this shop is .. ? Nowadays this era,opening own business its about good service,serve the client wid manners,smile ..... but this shop is totally the opposite .. But the mee was faboulously delicious ... And it is meant for ppl who knows how to wait .. Why did i say so? ..

The woman basically to my knowledge and my several times being there , never even smile .. And seriously no music needed in this shop,as all the while that u been there u will see the woman screaming to her maid .. and fantastically arguing wid the husband .. Enough of music to listen rite?

As i was told by Kenneth,without the arguing and screaming part,the Hakka mee wouldn't have taste so nice .. so i think the recipe of the Hakka Mee itself included wid the screaming and the amount of saliva went in the noodle perhaps? My imagination ... But hell yeah , it taaste really good and its a MUST TRY i must say ..

Well,for ppl who donno how this shop operate,follow this instruction, first , go in and jus order what u need to the woman .. Regardless she answer u back o not.. If u think she didnt hear,u r wrong .. If u try to repeat , chances are u might kena shoot by the woman .. Jus order and have ur seat..
Second, wait at ur seat .. and i mean WAIT .. regardless how long it takes .. It will come eventually .. If she forget whut u order she will ask u by then ..
Thirdly when ur order is serve,of coz, eat la.. Dont worry of the amount of time that u been waiting becoz during this time u will b entertain by the 'music' that ive mentioned earlier ..
After eating , jus pay the bill .. well * If u say pay the bill if she dont answer you,dont try to be clever to repeat,coz if not .. youll kena shoot .. so jus shout at the voice range that she can hear and WAIT ... haha!

It entertains me sometime to see this environment and how this stall can sustain till so long .. Sometime come to think about it,does service matters or the product itself that play the roles .. Definitely something unique wid this shop .. Free to drop by whenever you r at Seremban .. If dunno where jus beep Kenneth and ask him where is the " Lan Si Hakka Mee" is located and he will freely tell you where .. haha!

KWSP interview ...

Last week i received a call from Kwsp , they are calling me for an interview for the post of assistant manager .. Today is the day of the interview .. Well , i jus came back from KWSP headquarter in Jln Raja Laut .. One word, it was a remarkable experience .. This time around i didnt feel the nervousness running inside me .. as i take it easily and it was like come what may .. Interview suppose to take time at 2.30 .. reach there around 2.15..And of coz .. to prepare myself i wore a red baju kurung to interview today ! =)

Had my application form filled and answer a question wid max 300 letters .. =) Well jus write everything that came from the heart .. I was the 2nd one to b interviewed .. There are 5 ppl to be interviewed for this post .. Suppose to b 6 ppl,but one tarik diri .. While waiting inside the meeting room, had a chat wid a malay gurl who is there for the same thing too .. Basically,im the only chinese again .. ( well,in uni due to the course i took,im the only chinese there too ) .. =) So i kinda use to the situation edi .. =)

Well,my turn came,went into the interview room,saw 5 ppl on the other side .. To my surprise ,they are all difference races .. I was surprise that there were Chinese who work in KWSP too .. (3 malay,1 chinese,1 indian) .. It was really a relaxing moment to me ..as i jus answer every question they ask .. Well,the room was filled with laughter .. It didnt really seems like an interview as much it seems like a conversation typo .. Well they do as question as interviews do .. And they did ask funny question too .. It was really an enjoyable session .. Be it i get the pose o not, i feel i got nothing to lose .. The interview itself has already taught me great lessons and experience .. I jus feel so happy right now ..

It was indeed a great experience jus by the interview itself .. I did my part and im really happy for my performance today .. i thought i did great .. =) love today ....

Spring Cleaning ..

1/2/2010 ...
While everyone busy shopping and buying stuff for CNY,Ive been at home all day to clean my ..... ROOM .. Well, its not even house yet .. Spend my whole day cleaning my room and guess what,ive not finish cleaning it yet .. its jus a part that is clean which is my wardrobe .. WOW .. ive been thinking what have i done or stuffed in my room that i cant finish cleaning it for 1 day .. hehe! The toilet is not clean yet .. Floor not been mopped yet .. Started at 11am this morning and kinda like sitting blogging now wid my enhaustion at i declared stop time at 6.30pm , i jus manage to have pack 3 garbage bags full of 'stuffs' .. and yet my room is still got a lot of construction to do .. wahlao eh .. Just a room can be so time consuming .. what about a house? hahahah!

Well eventhough im very exhausted right now .. i do enjoy the process of cleaning it .. knowing that my room will not be the same again anymre .. Last time i use to keep all the things,mm seh tak throw it .. but it wont work .. This time no mercy ... Not gonna keep things that i dont use anymore .. Half success for today ... Gonna be a part 2 ... and my room will transform .. hahha!

NIKI,the celebrity!!

Yesterday,went wid mummy to The Pet Family,Kelana Jaya to buy some dog food and send my doggie to grooming before CNY .. have him be handsome through this auspicious day .. Went up and send him to the grooming room and went to see the available cutey doggie on the display box.. A poster capture my sight and i was like 'Mummy,this looks like Ni ... NO MUM,this is Niki!!! He is on the poster .. looking so handsomely being the spokeperson for 'Bark' dog food .. WHAT A SURPRISE .. Mummy couldnt believe it at first .. Then manage to see the similarity and thats the photo that we took at the shop itself ..

Then came a sight of a GIGANTIC banner hanging jus beside the stairs .. ITS NIKI AGAIN .. and this one was really huge .. Then suddenly came in one by one .. The poster was niki .. the gigantic banner has niki's big big handsome face one it .. and even the tiny version of him hanging on the ceiling and one the price tag .. Suddenly i jus feel that he is so famous .. Mummy was so happy as she always think that Niki was so handsome and is so wasted that no one took him to be the 'spokesperson'.. haha! Seems like her dream came TRUE!!

By the way , Niki is my golden retriever .. =)

Experience of 'buang-ing' ppl ...

For past few months,ive hire a indi guy to help me out in my work to distribute book.Well,it really wasnt a very responsible guy it seems that he took off whereby agreement is made that he got to work jus 3 days in a week and 2 hours.Be it,if cant come for work then find ppl to replace.. Its okie if u take leave for emergency reason..Not that im so cruel enough to not let you go.Take leave without any reason nvm,give hell lots of excuses .. pening kepala ..

Recently, he's been getting real ridiculous that i tot i cant tolerate him anymore. Sending me sms in the morning say got MC can work .. ask him to find replacement,ask me back if i cant find how? Memang wont find edi la say like that .. then later call me, give me excuses say got denggi this and that .. wid a bunch of excuses why he CANT do it .. ok nvm .. ask him to set a time to hand me back the returned book,dilly dally .. and set 4 pm .. then call back later say wanna change time .. long story la .. ENOUGH!!

Waited at Mobil .. pass 4.30 edi .. no call no sign of ppl coming .. call him , he dare telling me 'Jynnie,sini hujan lebat la' .. Say reach at 4 , late oso never call .. what do u think ill do ? warn him to get his ass ere and give me back those book .. Reach ere give me tonnes of excuses again .. saying doc say he needs to stay at hospital this and that! say insurance not covering him coz he came out and now he got to pay himself .. Victim? such a nice story ...

ENOUGH is ENOUGH !! Tolerate oso got limit .. Mummy ask to give him a second chance .. Without having much thought, i decided to fire him .. cause the only thing in my mind is if i dont fire him,i feel sorry for myself .. cant accept not firing him .. Sorry Mum.. i rather been doing the work myself rather than paying a person which is not responsible towards work .. Im sure there are alot of betters one who is willing to work and responsible out there .. My god!!

My life has been rollercoaster this month especially this very week .. im glad that i always have a mentor wid me to really wake me up in times of turbulence .. had been encountering alot of different different situation whether its good nor otherwise .. however it is,everything that happens there r things to learn from it ..

Being in the biz work, whether i like it o not .. its always dont go as how i want it to be .. if life can b so peaceful,it may as well sounds dead .. same in the biz world .. im a freshman in biz world and i had alot of things that i encountered for first time .. Many times i will beat up myself when things dont go my way .. and question myself whether o not what i do appropriate o should i b like this .. I still had a long way to learn in this biz world .. today i told myself .. nothing can stop me .. no matter how many challenges that its gonna be,it will never stop me from going forward..
True enough there are times tat i couldnt get up from the breakdown and keep beating myself on why what happen and whut should i do .. all i can say is to put word simple .. how do u call a promoter to b a controller in jus 1 day time .. what i am struggling is not more than to b stern and firm in this line ..

Guess Jynnie the firm and stern girl is on the way .... =p